westedge | PC: Kyoko

That...is a highest number than I expected, actually.

What number were you expecting?

[ Slight static of interest. ]

[ *higher, wow ]

I don't know, like...two? Maybe? The rule just dropped this morning.

I ran into a lot of people. Better to get the work done.

[ thinky. ]

Let me ask you this. What do you define as affection?

It's a fondness for someone.

[The definition of affection.]

Yeah, okay, but...you don't think there's like different degrees of fondness you can feel for a person?

[There's a fuzzy static feeling of interest.]

The rules didn't specify a level of fondness. Are you worried about how you'll be perceived?

[ a squiggle of unease. maybe a little embarrassment. ]

Yes? No? I don't know, I just think it's kind of weird to ask to bite people because...[ ... ] There's always the chance that fondness isn't mutual. You know?

[Is it so strange? Sometimes you care for people and they don't care back, but that doesn't erase the care you feel towards them...]

Jonas, give me your hand?

[ THAT IS A PROBLEM SOMETIMES. but anyway he blinks a little and hands over his hand without thinking about it. ]

Okay? Why?

[She very gently bites the back of his hand, and then lets him go.]

That's why.

[ he sort of just goes ? ? ? for a second. ]

...seriously how the hell do you make this look so easy.

It would be more difficult if I didn't have a mouth.

[ Joking. ]

I'm not the type to get embarrassed by very much.

And she even comes with jokes. [ a little squiggle of nervous amusement, at least. ]

That is something I kind of envy, I won't even pretend otherwise. But it's not even always about embarrassment anyway.

[ he had said it was earlier, but there's still more to it. ]

What is it about? If you want to talk about it.

[ While she notes the contradiction, she doesn't point it out. She doesn't mind either way, really. ]

[ hrm.... ]

It's not that I don't want to talk about it. I think it's just something you may not really get because you strike me as the kind of person who really does not have any problem with thinking about how people might think of you.

[ The slight static fuzz of interest, and maybe a little bit of surprise. ]

I don't really think about how other people view me. I just do what I want and deal with it later.

[ the vibes echoed back are just a lot of ???? ]

Okay but...what about if it gets to a point where you do something and you can't actually fix it?

You'll need to be more specific.

Like...you make a decision that really changes your entire dynamic with somebody and you didn't actually want to, so it shifts to the point you can't fix it again. Something like that.

[ There's something like understanding in her static. ]

If it's something that can't be fixed, then it's something to be accepted. Relationships change. With time, it might be changed for the better.

Unless it's permanently for the worst. [ a blip of unease...but it's kyoko, and he figures she might not even really have many thoughts about this. so he continues. ]

It's just that I've been trying kind of harder than usual to figure out and maintain relationships lately. I don't want to rock the boat and undo everything or change someone's opinion because of something I'm doing that they may not feel the same about. Which goes back to the affection thing and...you get it.

[ local teenager is trying to figure out people and wants people to like him as much as he might like them. ]

[ "Worse" is also a possibility. ]

Do you think it's entirely unrecoverable?

It seems like you're thinking about this relationship often. It can be difficult to be objective when what you're thinking about is, well, you. It sounds like your running yourself in a circle.

I'm not sure yet. [ ... ] It's not even just one relationship, I'm kind of thinking about all of them so...maybe I am running myself in a circle. It's just that in a game like this I can't take too many risks or guesses.

[ because it could either wind up with him dead, or it could mean someone he actually likes is dead. both options kind of suck. ]

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