It's not that I don't want to talk about it. I think it's just something you may not really get because you strike me as the kind of person who really does not have any problem with thinking about how people might think of you.
Like...you make a decision that really changes your entire dynamic with somebody and you didn't actually want to, so it shifts to the point you can't fix it again. Something like that.
Unless it's permanently for the worst. [ a blip of unease...but it's kyoko, and he figures she might not even really have many thoughts about this. so he continues. ]
It's just that I've been trying kind of harder than usual to figure out and maintain relationships lately. I don't want to rock the boat and undo everything or change someone's opinion because of something I'm doing that they may not feel the same about. Which goes back to the affection thing and...you get it.
[ local teenager is trying to figure out people and wants people to like him as much as he might like them. ]
It seems like you're thinking about this relationship often. It can be difficult to be objective when what you're thinking about is, well, you. It sounds like your running yourself in a circle.
I'm not sure yet. [ ... ] It's not even just one relationship, I'm kind of thinking about all of them so...maybe I am running myself in a circle. It's just that in a game like this I can't take too many risks or guesses.
[ because it could either wind up with him dead, or it could mean someone he actually likes is dead. both options kind of suck. ]
Still figuring that out, too. How much a person gets to know, how much I'm willing to give a person...how much I expect. All of that kind of stuff. It's what makes a team game interesting. People are going to try and figure each other out but there's always the chance their motivations are just to get ahead and don't actually mean anything.
[ this is literally just about biting, but it's all related to him. ]
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Okay? Why?
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That's why.
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...seriously how the hell do you make this look so easy.
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[ Joking. ]
I'm not the type to get embarrassed by very much.
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That is something I kind of envy, I won't even pretend otherwise. But it's not even always about embarrassment anyway.
[ he had said it was earlier, but there's still more to it. ]
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[ While she notes the contradiction, she doesn't point it out. She doesn't mind either way, really. ]
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It's not that I don't want to talk about it. I think it's just something you may not really get because you strike me as the kind of person who really does not have any problem with thinking about how people might think of you.
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I don't really think about how other people view me. I just do what I want and deal with it later.
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Okay but...what about if it gets to a point where you do something and you can't actually fix it?
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If it's something that can't be fixed, then it's something to be accepted. Relationships change. With time, it might be changed for the better.
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It's just that I've been trying kind of harder than usual to figure out and maintain relationships lately. I don't want to rock the boat and undo everything or change someone's opinion because of something I'm doing that they may not feel the same about. Which goes back to the affection thing and...you get it.
[ local teenager is trying to figure out people and wants people to like him as much as he might like them. ]
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Do you think it's entirely unrecoverable?
It seems like you're thinking about this relationship often. It can be difficult to be objective when what you're thinking about is, well, you. It sounds like your running yourself in a circle.
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[ because it could either wind up with him dead, or it could mean someone he actually likes is dead. both options kind of suck. ]
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[ Some people are going to die, every week. It seems to be the way of this place. ]
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[ this is literally just about biting, but it's all related to him. ]