i feel like she'd appreciate you trying to hold it together for them also i hate to tell you this vash but i have definitely participated in underage drinking but i don't think that will help either so skate park is good by me i can meet you there
[ he has a board and he's still being kind of careful with his arm because he hasn't bothered healing it, but it's much easier to navigate this. ]
I think...being a little less responsible isn't such a bad thing right now, dude. It's been a really, really awful week for you guys. [ not only with shenhe being erased, but livio disappearing on that mission, too, didn't help. ]
I keep meaning to and then...you know. Everything happens a lot. Kazuki helped bandage it yesterday and that was fine but...I also wouldn't say no I guess if it wouldn't tap you out entirely. Since we don't know what's going on tomorrow either.
[ so he doesn't mind putting it off, even if he gives vash a little grin. ]
It's been...worth the drinks, probably. I'm still not entirely sure what happened on their trip. I talked to a few of them and it was just as confusing as usual. Seems like these missions really are gonna be weekly though.
[ and he's about to leave it at that, and maybe talk about something else, but then vash brings up the deaths and specifically asks that question and he stops to think on that answer quietly. ]
...I, uh. Wouldn't say I was as close to her as you guys were. Or, um. Fei Du? But. [ he's kind of trying to figure out how to phrase what he wants to say so he stops again. ] ...we talked a lot. About a lot of stuff. I think we both had an understanding of each other that I don't think a lot of other people would get. She told me about Liyue and she told me stories and sometimes we'd just have a mutual understanding that there would always be a tree for us to hide out in when everybody was so intense and we weren't sure what to do with it. Shenhe I think...was maybe the only person who understood what it was like to live a certain way, be forced to go through changes, and then be spit back out to readjust to all kinds of new rules and a new life.
[ that feels like a lot of information. so he goes quiet again, kind of rolling on the board in a lazy little line going nowhere. ]
She told me she wanted to be someone who helped instead of hurt. That's why I never ever even considered the idea of her going after someone first. I also just never thought she'd be gone this fast.
[ so. the answer's yes, basically. or at least he would consider them close enough. ]
Maybe it'd be better to wait for the new week... It would save us both embarrassment in the case of my borrowed psych wigging out or just plain failing. If anything, we have a lot of healers. I'm not going to nag, but catching one early is ideal.
[ me getting some clarification on heals, so this will have to wait until next week
Vash listens and this makes his heart warm as he skated along the park. It's cute... And he's so glad that they had each other. However, it doesn't stop him from teasing a little. ]
Yeah, that's sort of my thought...not that you'd have anything to be embarrassed about, but. You get it. I can always ask one of the people with Healing Aura as their primary if they have any energy left, too. It's not a priority.
[ being on the move is easier when having these conversations, so jonas is still going along but never straying too far from vash. but he sort of rolls his eyes a little. ]
...yeah, okay. We were close. [ a pause. ] It really does suck that she's gone.
...why's that always the way, anyway? Rin was going to try to figure out how to survive and learn to love swimming again. Buzen had Matsui and they just wanted more time together. And now this. Why is it these people that get chosen?
I know we have to accept it, but I don't think it means we have to forgive that it happened either.
I think we're all discovering what it means to have a second chance and reconsidering what it means to live.
[ The vaguest and most optimistic way to say that it'll just become harder from here on out. Everyone has a reason to return... Or they're finding the will to live. Bad. Vash closes his eyes. ]
This reaper's game—there was another one before this one. Sounds like there were more. To think an awful system like this can be replicated and ran more than once is...
The whole "don't take life for granted" thing? You're...probably not wrong, now that I think about it. [ and that really just makes it worse, actually! wow! it sort of makes him mad all over again, biting at the inside of his cheek before he can continue and waiting for vash to finish speaking. ]
...there's been a lot of them, according to the reapers. [ curiously though, he looks over at him. ] You've heard something else then?
[ it's a tentative question just to see how much vash knows about what's been going on. ]
[ HIGH STAKES, SAD THOUGHTS ALL AROUND. Vash doesn't say more on that... They don't need to dwell on people considering their mortality, what that may mean for their dreams. ]
I know about the notes from those missions and someone told me about the erased being on a different frequency. Then some who end up killing could be either blackmailed or bribed...
[ So he thinks not much i have been struggle busing on audiences this game ]
[ they have the same understanding and that's really all jonas needs to know in order to feel like he can actually talk to vash in general, really. ]
I'm gonna assume Livio told you guys about the third note then? We heard from...I have no idea who, Alex just told us. I've heard about the phone calls, too, but...I'm not sure about the erased being on a different frequency. When I asked the reapers before, they told me erased just meant erased, period. But I'd heard about the frequency thing, too.
... That's right. In general, I don't like what I've learned. The stakes are higher than I thought, if these messages are credible.
[ He isn't buying it immediately, but it isn't like the stakes weren't high already. It is just... Worse. There's a pause as he thinks about it because how many worlds could be wiped out at the end of this, if real?
ohhh
he slaps the sides of his face to stop himself from getting depressed and insecure. ]
It's hard for me not to latch onto the possibility that they're out there, in some under-underground. UUG? And that we might be able to reach them. [ Strokes chin. ] Did you ever learn why Rin showed up in trial that week?
Yeah...I told Wolfwood on Tuesday and he sort of left me on read. It's been pretty bad having to think about how real these things could be. When I asked the reapers they said they'd check if they were meant to be about our game but that it was pretty likely. More or less.
[ which...not good. bad actually? he frowns to himself, but then vash is continuing and he blinks at the subject change. ]
I have a few thoughts, but nothing solid. Why, did you? Or do you think it's part of the UUG that could exist?
... Wolfwood has his reasons, so don't think he's ignoring you.
[ Vash tries to reassure even if Jonas isn't insecure about it. ]
Well, the shadow people here are living people and when we enter buildings or try to get services from them, that's when we appear to them before disappearing. I wondered if that could have been what happened to Rin, but at a limited capacity. Maybe for a short time, under certain conditions, frequencies almost match. Sure, his body was still on the table, but we are allegedly souls, too, yet we have pulses and we can physically touch each other.
[ Don't think too much about are we dead mechanics. Thinking some more. ]
But that's if frequency and UUG have any weight to them. It's all theory, especially when we haven't seen this happen again. It could have just been a curse. A very... Unsettling one.
[ ... ]
I was just curious if you knew why he showed up or not. It really messed up Livio, so...
[ hysterically no he was actually insecure about this so thank you vash. ]
So like his soul just slipped in and out of place? Maybe. I hadn't really thought about it that way, I sort of assumed it was like a team psych or something. Mostly because, like, like you said why just Rin...? Why not anybody else somehow?
I don't have an actual answer though. I just wish I did.
[ we love the "suddenly i'm insecure" week it's hilarious. ]
I'm more inclined to believing it's a psych if we saw it happen more than once. [ Speaking of psychs. ] Maybe we should assemble a list of what psychs we know exist or what we're assuming are psychs, actually. Another time.
It's all right. It's all just... Wondering, I guess. So many things are kind of unexplainable.
[ back to the "I really don't know why things happen sometimes, they just do" vibe. ]
How do we know Rin isn't the one who activated it before D killed him? That's kind of what I was thinking. I asked the reapers about why we saw him, and they could only tell me they couldn't answer any part of the case that I didn't know about myself. [ but hm...he nods to that. ] I don't disagree. We all know everybody has a team psych, at least. But who knows what any of them do.
[ there is that though. ]
I feel like the explanation here, more often than not, is really just "why not?" considering we're all dead. Somehow it's easier that way.
Think about it. If someone had an ability like that, you could really trick people into thinking someone else was there and get them to do or say whatever you want. Or at least what they'd say to that person. [ it's a thought, anyway. ]
You ever think we're really not supposed to have a real answer?
I would love if less happened for more reasons, but you know. Beggars, choosers. I feel like it takes away from the intensity of the game if we always get what we want.
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normally, i'd just drink until i pass out, but you're underage so i was thinking
maybe we go to the skate park!
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also i hate to tell you this vash but i have definitely participated in underage drinking
but i don't think that will help either so
skate park is good by me
i can meet you there
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There's goes my attempt at being a responsible adult. [ ... ] Awful week.
[ Understatement. ]
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I think...being a little less responsible isn't such a bad thing right now, dude. It's been a really, really awful week for you guys. [ not only with shenhe being erased, but livio disappearing on that mission, too, didn't help. ]
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[ OUR TEAM TBD... also because i never got a mod comment that said Vash is tired out from healing yet. ]
Yeah, I've been drinking. [ But he's coordinated in spite of it. ] Livio really had to fall out of the sky with a bunch of holes in him.
[ He says in an annoyed tone, then exhales. ]
And two deaths. [ ... ] Were you close to Shenhe?
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I keep meaning to and then...you know. Everything happens a lot. Kazuki helped bandage it yesterday and that was fine but...I also wouldn't say no I guess if it wouldn't tap you out entirely. Since we don't know what's going on tomorrow either.
[ so he doesn't mind putting it off, even if he gives vash a little grin. ]
It's been...worth the drinks, probably. I'm still not entirely sure what happened on their trip. I talked to a few of them and it was just as confusing as usual. Seems like these missions really are gonna be weekly though.
[ and he's about to leave it at that, and maybe talk about something else, but then vash brings up the deaths and specifically asks that question and he stops to think on that answer quietly. ]
...I, uh. Wouldn't say I was as close to her as you guys were. Or, um. Fei Du? But. [ he's kind of trying to figure out how to phrase what he wants to say so he stops again. ] ...we talked a lot. About a lot of stuff. I think we both had an understanding of each other that I don't think a lot of other people would get. She told me about Liyue and she told me stories and sometimes we'd just have a mutual understanding that there would always be a tree for us to hide out in when everybody was so intense and we weren't sure what to do with it. Shenhe I think...was maybe the only person who understood what it was like to live a certain way, be forced to go through changes, and then be spit back out to readjust to all kinds of new rules and a new life.
[ that feels like a lot of information. so he goes quiet again, kind of rolling on the board in a lazy little line going nowhere. ]
She told me she wanted to be someone who helped instead of hurt. That's why I never ever even considered the idea of her going after someone first. I also just never thought she'd be gone this fast.
[ so. the answer's yes, basically. or at least he would consider them close enough. ]
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[ me getting some clarification on heals, so this will have to wait until next week
Vash listens and this makes his heart warm as he skated along the park. It's cute... And he's so glad that they had each other. However, it doesn't stop him from teasing a little. ]
So the answer is yes. You guys were close.
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[ being on the move is easier when having these conversations, so jonas is still going along but never straying too far from vash. but he sort of rolls his eyes a little. ]
...yeah, okay. We were close. [ a pause. ] It really does suck that she's gone.
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[ They keep skating and skating. Vash will try to do a little trick, but it doesn't make him feel better when he lands it. ]
It just makes it harder to accept.
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I know we have to accept it, but I don't think it means we have to forgive that it happened either.
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[ The vaguest and most optimistic way to say that it'll just become harder from here on out. Everyone has a reason to return... Or they're finding the will to live. Bad. Vash closes his eyes. ]
This reaper's game—there was another one before this one. Sounds like there were more. To think an awful system like this can be replicated and ran more than once is...
[ ITS JUST BAD. ]
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...there's been a lot of them, according to the reapers. [ curiously though, he looks over at him. ] You've heard something else then?
[ it's a tentative question just to see how much vash knows about what's been going on. ]
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[ HIGH STAKES, SAD THOUGHTS ALL AROUND. Vash doesn't say more on that... They don't need to dwell on people considering their mortality, what that may mean for their dreams. ]
I know about the notes from those missions and someone told me about the erased being on a different frequency. Then some who end up killing could be either blackmailed or bribed...
[ So he thinks not much i have been struggle busing on audiences this game ]
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I'm gonna assume Livio told you guys about the third note then? We heard from...I have no idea who, Alex just told us. I've heard about the phone calls, too, but...I'm not sure about the erased being on a different frequency. When I asked the reapers before, they told me erased just meant erased, period. But I'd heard about the frequency thing, too.
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[ He isn't buying it immediately, but it isn't like the stakes weren't high already. It is just... Worse. There's a pause as he thinks about it because how many worlds could be wiped out at the end of this, if real?
ohhh
he slaps the sides of his face to stop himself from getting depressed and insecure. ]
It's hard for me not to latch onto the possibility that they're out there, in some under-underground. UUG? And that we might be able to reach them. [ Strokes chin. ] Did you ever learn why Rin showed up in trial that week?
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[ which...not good. bad actually? he frowns to himself, but then vash is continuing and he blinks at the subject change. ]
I have a few thoughts, but nothing solid. Why, did you? Or do you think it's part of the UUG that could exist?
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[ Vash tries to reassure even if Jonas isn't insecure about it. ]
Well, the shadow people here are living people and when we enter buildings or try to get services from them, that's when we appear to them before disappearing. I wondered if that could have been what happened to Rin, but at a limited capacity. Maybe for a short time, under certain conditions, frequencies almost match. Sure, his body was still on the table, but we are allegedly souls, too, yet we have pulses and we can physically touch each other.
[ Don't think too much about are we dead mechanics. Thinking some more. ]
But that's if frequency and UUG have any weight to them. It's all theory, especially when we haven't seen this happen again. It could have just been a curse. A very... Unsettling one.
[ ... ]
I was just curious if you knew why he showed up or not. It really messed up Livio, so...
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So like his soul just slipped in and out of place? Maybe. I hadn't really thought about it that way, I sort of assumed it was like a team psych or something. Mostly because, like, like you said why just Rin...? Why not anybody else somehow?
I don't have an actual answer though. I just wish I did.
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I'm more inclined to believing it's a psych if we saw it happen more than once. [ Speaking of psychs. ] Maybe we should assemble a list of what psychs we know exist or what we're assuming are psychs, actually. Another time.
It's all right. It's all just... Wondering, I guess. So many things are kind of unexplainable.
[ back to the "I really don't know why things happen sometimes, they just do" vibe. ]
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[ there is that though. ]
I feel like the explanation here, more often than not, is really just "why not?" considering we're all dead. Somehow it's easier that way.
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[ Vash here thinking about his own like will it save my ass at all. ]
"Why not" is a solid explanation for any of this and that's a little bit frightening.
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You ever think we're really not supposed to have a real answer?
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[ it's called shitposts ]
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[ instead, we get naked hangman ig. ]