PC: Mizuki

[westedge]

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[adorabrawler]

Yeah, I know. I told her not to, but she's too nice for her own good. Still... I appreciate it.

And have somewhere to sleep tonight I guess.

[westedge]

There's the whole thing about not looking gift horses in the mouth or whatever, but...you know. I get it.

[ . . . ]

We have two beds in our place. Three, I guess, if you count the hideaway or whatever. But you wouldn't think so with how our sleeping arrangements were for a long time. It's just one of those things you don't really think about until you do. If that makes any sense.

[ you think about how much you take for granted until you're in a place like this where you're without and have to re-earn everything. ]

[adorabrawler]

Nah... I do think about it. It wasn't so bad, now—I'd managed to cobble together a decent enough sleep spot.

[westedge]

Our first week here we stole a bunch of bedding and stuffed sharks from IKEA. Even after we got the first bed though we slept in that pile for a little while longer. I think we all got used to it.

[adorabrawler]

How do you get too used to the floor for a bed...

[westedge]

[ ...mmm... ]

The cot in the detention center wasn't the most comfy thing in the world either. After sleeping on that thing for months, the floor wasn't terrible.

[adorabrawler]

[ ... raising an eyebrow at him ]

Detention center?

[westedge]

Yeah. I mean I guess it was kind of a bed, but not really? It was more than a cot but less of a bed, pretty much there just to sleep on but not be too comfortable while you were there.

[ she can ask. he's truly just overexplaining the wrong point. ]

[adorabrawler]

No, I mean... why a detention center.

[westedge]

[ ah. he shrugs. sort of. he's still laying on the grass. ]

Judge decided the charges weren't strong enough for a jail sentence, but were too strong to be dropped. So...juvenile detention was the result.

[adorabrawler]

Oh.

Sorry, that was probably too personal.

[westedge]

[ waving a hand. ]

It's fine. I...it's not really a secret or anything. Just hasn't come up with most people. Didn't seem relevant to most of the stuff going on here. Most people wanted to know where I was before I got here, and the technical truth is that I was on a ferry with Alex because we were leaving Edwards Island. The further truth is that I'd just met her that day because I'd just been released a few days before that.

[adorabrawler]

... Oh. Yeah, Alex told me you two only just met that night, but I didn't think anything of it.

[westedge]

Yeah. I'd just moved to Camena earlier that day, so Alex brought me along for this thing her friends were doing. Some dumb tradition about spending the night on the island. What happened was the horror freakshow with the ghosts. [ haha. ] ...even if it was just that night, I think both of us feel like we've known each other a lot longer. It's made this game a lot easier on both of us, considering.

[adorabrawler]

I'd bet so. You're really lucky to have someone you know around.

[westedge]

[ at least until...

the thought disappears. ]

Yeah. It's, uh. Kind of a catch-22 you know? Having her here has made everything a lot easier, but I also spend every week freaking out she'll be dead on Friday so you know. It's a trade-off. [ it's kind of a joke, but also. help. ]

[adorabrawler]

[ ... hm. ]

Ugh—no, that makes sense. At least you weren't the only one?

[westedge]

Yeah. [ ... ] I know Alex and I are lucky both of us have lived this long. I don't take that for granted. [ he's thinking about how wolfwood just left vash and livio behind, mostly. ] But it's been kind of wild to see how the rest of the game's played out.

[adorabrawler]

"Wild" is... putting it generously.

[westedge]

It was kinder than saying "this game has been fucking brutal", what do you want from me?

[adorabrawler]

To just say that, really.

[westedge]

[ ugggh. ]

'kay. This game's been fucking brutal, and it's always hard to watch everybody lose people they care about. I half-expected somebody to go after one of us this weekend because of our team still having three people. We lucked out. I don't know how to feel about it.

[ relieved, mostly, which in itself feels shitty. ]

[adorabrawler]

Hopefully not bad.

[westedge]

[ a huff. ]

A little bad. Obviously I'm really glad Alex and Kazuki are okay. I wouldn't have wanted to see a world without them. But then...I dunno. You see how people react when they lose people they do care about, and you want to sympathize entirely and be there for them, but you still kind of go "at least it wasn't the people I care about."

Human nature, shitty as it may feel.

[adorabrawler]

I mean... I get it. There's been weeks where I think the same thing, too—that this sucks, but at least it wasn't this person, or that person, or whoever else.