It's fine. I...it's not really a secret or anything. Just hasn't come up with most people. Didn't seem relevant to most of the stuff going on here. Most people wanted to know where I was before I got here, and the technical truth is that I was on a ferry with Alex because we were leaving Edwards Island. The further truth is that I'd just met her that day because I'd just been released a few days before that.
Yeah. I'd just moved to Camena earlier that day, so Alex brought me along for this thing her friends were doing. Some dumb tradition about spending the night on the island. What happened was the horror freakshow with the ghosts. [ haha. ] ...even if it was just that night, I think both of us feel like we've known each other a lot longer. It's made this game a lot easier on both of us, considering.
Yeah. It's, uh. Kind of a catch-22 you know? Having her here has made everything a lot easier, but I also spend every week freaking out she'll be dead on Friday so you know. It's a trade-off. [ it's kind of a joke, but also. help. ]
Yeah. [ ... ] I know Alex and I are lucky both of us have lived this long. I don't take that for granted. [ he's thinking about how wolfwood just left vash and livio behind, mostly. ] But it's been kind of wild to see how the rest of the game's played out.
'kay. This game's been fucking brutal, and it's always hard to watch everybody lose people they care about. I half-expected somebody to go after one of us this weekend because of our team still having three people. We lucked out. I don't know how to feel about it.
[ relieved, mostly, which in itself feels shitty. ]
A little bad. Obviously I'm really glad Alex and Kazuki are okay. I wouldn't have wanted to see a world without them. But then...I dunno. You see how people react when they lose people they do care about, and you want to sympathize entirely and be there for them, but you still kind of go "at least it wasn't the people I care about."
I mean... I get it. There's been weeks where I think the same thing, too—that this sucks, but at least it wasn't this person, or that person, or whoever else.
It happens when you get close to people. I don't care what anyone says. You can get along with everyone just fine, but there will always be a bias.
[ there's a significantly long pause then. ]
...when this game is over...and assuming there are enough points to bring everybody back, everyone's going to go different places. Back to where they belong. I always knew that. [ but? ] But that includes me and Alex. So every week she's alive, there's always a moment I forget everything else because all I can care about is I get at least another week with her.
A little funny when we all mostly started out as strangers and couldn't figure out how to work together, right? But people always bind in tragedy so it's not surprising. [ there's a low hum of thought. ] Maybe whoever wins will have enough points to build in a clause to allow us to at least have an option to see each other. I have no idea how it would work though given the whole...other dimensions thing.
See, I've been thinking the same. We have no idea how, and we're going to reasonably have to figure out a way back, so...why not build in a two-way transportation route of some kind?
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Judge decided the charges weren't strong enough for a jail sentence, but were too strong to be dropped. So...juvenile detention was the result.
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Sorry, that was probably too personal.
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It's fine. I...it's not really a secret or anything. Just hasn't come up with most people. Didn't seem relevant to most of the stuff going on here. Most people wanted to know where I was before I got here, and the technical truth is that I was on a ferry with Alex because we were leaving Edwards Island. The further truth is that I'd just met her that day because I'd just been released a few days before that.
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Yeah. It's, uh. Kind of a catch-22 you know? Having her here has made everything a lot easier, but I also spend every week freaking out she'll be dead on Friday so you know. It's a trade-off. [ it's kind of a joke, but also. help. ]
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Ugh—no, that makes sense. At least you weren't the only one?
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'kay. This game's been fucking brutal, and it's always hard to watch everybody lose people they care about. I half-expected somebody to go after one of us this weekend because of our team still having three people. We lucked out. I don't know how to feel about it.
[ relieved, mostly, which in itself feels shitty. ]
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A little bad. Obviously I'm really glad Alex and Kazuki are okay. I wouldn't have wanted to see a world without them. But then...I dunno. You see how people react when they lose people they do care about, and you want to sympathize entirely and be there for them, but you still kind of go "at least it wasn't the people I care about."
Human nature, shitty as it may feel.
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[ there's a significantly long pause then. ]
...when this game is over...and assuming there are enough points to bring everybody back, everyone's going to go different places. Back to where they belong. I always knew that. [ but? ] But that includes me and Alex. So every week she's alive, there's always a moment I forget everything else because all I can care about is I get at least another week with her.
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