[ It turns out when you lose this many people you love and care about all in one night even the most composed person can fall apart. As much as she'd like to be professional... It's so much all at once and now she's here. The last person in her team, scheduled for Erasure no matter what happens next.
She's not injured at all, but she does seem exhausted. ]
It's alright. Sometimes it's impossible to know what to say.
[ me opening this now that i'm home and getting my ass kicked by sad meta. it's fine. he's not letting go immediately because he figures that, perhaps, because kyoko usually seems so put together people may not do this for her. ]
It doesn't feel right not to say anything at all either. We all knew this would be bad, but...I was really, really hoping it wouldn't be this bad.
[ He would be... Correct! She usually doesn't need the physical reassurance. Usually she can just work through everything. Unfortunately, that option is not available right now and the idea of having to deal with the reality of her partner's dead body makes her feel sick.
She specializes in cyber crimes. Not ones that leave behind bodies. ]
I was hoping it wouldn't be four again. I was hoping... [ That I wouldn't be left alone. ]
[ it's fine. he will continue to hug until she flings him off, basically, because he figures support is about all he can do at the moment. ]
We were all hoping that. [ it's...scary. wanting to avoid a team wipe because there really were so few options, but at the same time he can understand not wanting to lose your whole team. not wanting to wait around just to die. ] I don't understand why we had to go back up to four. There's no reason for it. And...the people they went after don't make any sense either.
[ That's not going to happen for a long while. It's been a long and trying game. She's lost a lot of friends along the way. At this point, she's tired. She'll keep going because it's her only option, but it feels so pointless now. ]
Netzach and Yuzuriha, Wenzhou... Wolfwood. [ Her voice breaks slightly on that last name. ] I don't understand any of these picks.
...I don't either. I can't think of anybody who would want to actually hurt these guys. [ not entirely true, but...it's complicated. ] You guys weren't even in last place, and to take out both Netzach and Yuzuriha in one night feels way too deliberate.
I've been asking about that, too. I was really hoping something would change, but the only answer I really got is that it's not a bad idea to have multiple high-ranking teams. If that's the same answer other people got, that could be a motive.
[ which is shitty, frankly. but...ah... ]
...he doesn't think so, really, but he's a good guy. Or...maybe good isn't the right word. But I always felt like I could talk to him about stuff I couldn't really mention to other people. It helped. I think if you know how to talk to him, he's a good friend.
[ She'll file away that information for later, not totally sure of the good it'll do her. ]
He is. It's always easy to talk to him. He's somebody who's easy to like. [ I liked him more, but that's alright. An imbalance in fondness doesn't really bother her. ]
[ one-sided romance...this is his new headcanon, but also somehow that makes this worse. ]
I think he'd disagree, but that just means he's wrong if multiple people feel that way. [ kyoko is so valid. ] ...it makes it harder to really think about who would want to hurt him.
[He could just ask her, but also asking her right now might be a little terrible.]
Right? I can't think of anyone. But... Our choices are limited. [There aren't a lot of people left, and the people who are left are teenagers for the most part.]
[ yes what if he does not ask her right this moment, that's rude. ]
There's sixteen of us left, and at least two or three people guilty. I can't imagine somebody would go on a killing spree for all four last night. But I also have no idea where to even start.
But with four bodies...we should maybe focus on one person and then a location unrelated to that person? Spread the work so we're solving things for different cases instead of bottlenecking into one. Or something.
[ it feels like i still am not great at this even weeks later. ]
I don't think it's selfish. We were pretty focused trying to figure out what happened to Setsu last week. I'd like to find out about Wolfwood, but we can do both. If we get our shit together, we can do all of it.
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...do...you want to be alone? Or... [ i want to help you...i know this must be hard. ]
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She has the cat in her lap, stroking him. She just looks exhausted at this point, eyes red from crying.]
I could use the company.
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but he does approach and just. hugs her around the shoulders while being mindful of any injuries or any signs she might not want it. ]
You know...sometimes saying sorry really, really doesn't feel like enough. Not for stuff like this.
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She's not injured at all, but she does seem exhausted. ]
It's alright. Sometimes it's impossible to know what to say.
[ She does hug him back. ]
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It doesn't feel right not to say anything at all either. We all knew this would be bad, but...I was really, really hoping it wouldn't be this bad.
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She specializes in cyber crimes. Not ones that leave behind bodies. ]
I was hoping it wouldn't be four again. I was hoping... [ That I wouldn't be left alone. ]
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We were all hoping that. [ it's...scary. wanting to avoid a team wipe because there really were so few options, but at the same time he can understand not wanting to lose your whole team. not wanting to wait around just to die. ] I don't understand why we had to go back up to four. There's no reason for it. And...the people they went after don't make any sense either.
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Netzach and Yuzuriha, Wenzhou... Wolfwood. [ Her voice breaks slightly on that last name. ] I don't understand any of these picks.
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...I don't either. I can't think of anybody who would want to actually hurt these guys. [ not entirely true, but...it's complicated. ] You guys weren't even in last place, and to take out both Netzach and Yuzuriha in one night feels way too deliberate.
[ ... ]
I didn't realize you and Wolfwood were so close.
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It's not like we can transfer around points. It sounded like they were found in the same place too. [ It must mean something. ]
Yes. He's one of my closest friends. [ I really like him. ]
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I've been asking about that, too. I was really hoping something would change, but the only answer I really got is that it's not a bad idea to have multiple high-ranking teams. If that's the same answer other people got, that could be a motive.
[ which is shitty, frankly. but...ah... ]
...he doesn't think so, really, but he's a good guy. Or...maybe good isn't the right word. But I always felt like I could talk to him about stuff I couldn't really mention to other people. It helped. I think if you know how to talk to him, he's a good friend.
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He is. It's always easy to talk to him. He's somebody who's easy to like. [ I liked him more, but that's alright. An imbalance in fondness doesn't really bother her. ]
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I think he'd disagree, but that just means he's wrong if multiple people feel that way. [ kyoko is so valid. ] ...it makes it harder to really think about who would want to hurt him.
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Right? I can't think of anyone. But... Our choices are limited. [There aren't a lot of people left, and the people who are left are teenagers for the most part.]
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There's sixteen of us left, and at least two or three people guilty. I can't imagine somebody would go on a killing spree for all four last night. But I also have no idea where to even start.
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That procedure doesn't change.
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[ it feels like i still am not great at this even weeks later. ]
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[There's so few of us now.]
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I don't think it's selfish. We were pretty focused trying to figure out what happened to Setsu last week. I'd like to find out about Wolfwood, but we can do both. If we get our shit together, we can do all of it.
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Okay. I'll do what I can but... [I don't know if I can rest at all tonight.]
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Do what you can, but don't pressure yourself. All of us are still here to do what we can, too.