westedge | PC: Kyoko

There's something to be said for people who are willing to open themselves up to that again and again.

I can't understand it. However, it's impossible for one person to understand everyone else. No matter how much they try.

[ hah. ]

Why does that just sound like you've actually tried before?

There are certain people I know I can't understand, even when they try to explain their reasoning.

Does that bother you? Not knowing the things you want to know. Or is it one of those things you just give up wanting to understand and move on to something else?

[ it's a question he's asked other people before, but he's curious of kyoko's opinion. ]

It bothers me a bit if I can't understand them and I can't persuade them into seeing sense. Sometimes I don't have the time to spend, and I have to move on.

[ he considers this for a few moments. the fish aren't biting, so he retracts the line and re-casts. ]

Do you ever bother looping back around if you move on?

Sometimes. Often we're too busy to talk again.

I keep going back and forth on if that's a good thing or a bad thing to be so busy. Sometimes I think I can understand it because it's good to have things to be doing and occupy yourself, but other times I think about how it means being stuck with your own thoughts a lot. I think that's the part that'd drive me crazy.

[ if you're too busy to really form relationships with people, or figure people out, aren't you mostly just alone? ]

I'm so used to being alone with my thoughts that it doesn't bother me. I've been alone a lot over my life, and it's always been alright. As long as there's something to focus on.

It's not the kind of life for everybody.

[ it sounds sad, is the thing. for someone like jonas who is a little more clingy than he wants to admit. ]

What about like...your family or anything? Are they not in the picture anymore?

[ A light shrug of her shoulders.

There's a reason she's like this, but it's not a reason she easily tends to share. Kyoko isn't a lonely person, but she is often just... Alone. ]

My father died and left his agency to me. I don't have any siblings and my mother isn't in the picture.

[ ...that would make things a little different, he thinks. ]

...I remember you mentioned about your dad being deceased for a while now. [ way, way back during 2 truths and 1 lie. he can read and remember things. ] But I don't think I realized after that you really just...didn't have anybody else. Did you even want the agency?

[ or did she just inherit it and continues to have it because there was no other option? ]

["Nobody" isn't exactly right, but it's a lot of professional contacts.]

I did, I was helping him with it since I was younger anyway. It did feel like it would be natural for me to take it.

And it's still something you want now? Like...I don't know, you've never thought about doing something else after.

I like my job. I can't imagine what else I'd do.

[Be a professor maybe? She does like knowing things.]

[ hum. ]

I guess that's fair. I haven't really thought about what I want to do with my future, so I guess it's just interesting to meet people who...kind of already had their future laid out for them.

There's no reason to pick right away. The future stretches before you and you can find something that fits.

The future is...extremely intimidating for that reason. Especially when you aren't sure how long you actually have to have it.

Because of this game, or because of something else?

Originally something else, but this game doesn't help either, I guess.

Would you like to talk about it?

[ hm... ]

It's...I mean maybe I'm being dramatic, but I do kind of feel like unless I figure out some stuff I already wrecked chances for my future. So it's a lot of figuring out the next steps to try and fix it all. Does that make sense?

Hmm... If you know that you need to figure things out, it seems like you're on the right track to "fixing" things.

Even if it feels more like "I'm standing on the middle of the track without a clue which direction to pick"? Because that's what it feels like half the time.

If you feel like you don't know, that's a good time to talk to the people you trust. Making a decision together is an option.

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