I keep going back and forth on if that's a good thing or a bad thing to be so busy. Sometimes I think I can understand it because it's good to have things to be doing and occupy yourself, but other times I think about how it means being stuck with your own thoughts a lot. I think that's the part that'd drive me crazy.
[ if you're too busy to really form relationships with people, or figure people out, aren't you mostly just alone? ]
I'm so used to being alone with my thoughts that it doesn't bother me. I've been alone a lot over my life, and it's always been alright. As long as there's something to focus on.
[ ...that would make things a little different, he thinks. ]
...I remember you mentioned about your dad being deceased for a while now. [ way, way back during 2 truths and 1 lie. he can read and remember things. ] But I don't think I realized after that you really just...didn't have anybody else. Did you even want the agency?
[ or did she just inherit it and continues to have it because there was no other option? ]
I guess that's fair. I haven't really thought about what I want to do with my future, so I guess it's just interesting to meet people who...kind of already had their future laid out for them.
It's...I mean maybe I'm being dramatic, but I do kind of feel like unless I figure out some stuff I already wrecked chances for my future. So it's a lot of figuring out the next steps to try and fix it all. Does that make sense?
Even if it feels more like "I'm standing on the middle of the track without a clue which direction to pick"? Because that's what it feels like half the time.
The people I trust have their own things to work out. [ vague. ] But I agree with you. Making a decision together is always an option for just about everything. So maybe that's an option for another time.
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[ if you're too busy to really form relationships with people, or figure people out, aren't you mostly just alone? ]
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It's not the kind of life for everybody.
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What about like...your family or anything? Are they not in the picture anymore?
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There's a reason she's like this, but it's not a reason she easily tends to share. Kyoko isn't a lonely person, but she is often just... Alone. ]
My father died and left his agency to me. I don't have any siblings and my mother isn't in the picture.
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...I remember you mentioned about your dad being deceased for a while now. [ way, way back during 2 truths and 1 lie. he can read and remember things. ] But I don't think I realized after that you really just...didn't have anybody else. Did you even want the agency?
[ or did she just inherit it and continues to have it because there was no other option? ]
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I did, I was helping him with it since I was younger anyway. It did feel like it would be natural for me to take it.
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[Be a professor maybe? She does like knowing things.]
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I guess that's fair. I haven't really thought about what I want to do with my future, so I guess it's just interesting to meet people who...kind of already had their future laid out for them.
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It's...I mean maybe I'm being dramatic, but I do kind of feel like unless I figure out some stuff I already wrecked chances for my future. So it's a lot of figuring out the next steps to try and fix it all. Does that make sense?
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The people I trust have their own things to work out. [ vague. ] But I agree with you. Making a decision together is always an option for just about everything. So maybe that's an option for another time.