PC: Vash

[westedge]

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[piteous]

it should be easier a second time, so i'll be fine.

[westedge]

i feel like that is not really a good answer
mostly because that worries me
...but he did mention before that something happened to him
and i'm still sorry this happened now

[piteous]

that's right. i don't know if it's something i can really talk about too much.

[ Even though he is one of the ones left to survive the incident. Those who live have to suffer through loss and wolfwood is just here cruising to death ]

it would have been easier if i could at least bury him, not that anywhere here would be appropriate. he'd want to be buried at home.

[westedge]

it's fine
it's not my business
that's between you guys
he only mentioned it to me a little when we spoke on tuesday
...morbid as it is, maybe when this is over that'll be an option
i do kind of wish we didn't have to think that way
it's hard to think about why him though

[piteous]

morbid, sure. it's also a sweet thought. he always wanted to return home, but the idiot never visited because of complex problems.

i wish it was me, instead.

[ But he doesn't want Jonas to linger on that. He does mean objectively it makes more sense to take him out. ]

i had thought it'd be quieter this week, not two teams being wiped.

[westedge]

that seems to be a thing for both of you too
complex problems
i wish...he had gotten a chance to go back on his own
i think i can understand that

[ if only because being left behind fucking sucks every time. ]

i was hoping it'd be quieter, too
but...we did hear something that might explain some things
if other people got similar messages
i don't know how accurate they are, but i've been thinking about what that means
about how erasing an entire team is better for an intended goal

[piteous]

the one i remember got to return home in my timeline, but Wolfwood here wasn't caught up yet. feels pretty bad.

[ canonpoints are awful ]

this reminds me that Shenhe mentioned that it's okay to wipe out a team, which i thought was weird when they were against it earlier. what message did you guys get?

[westedge]

i know you may not think so, but believe me when i say i think i know what you mean.

[ canonpoints are awful! ]

yeah we thought it was pretty weird too? i'm not sure who it came from, it went to alex though. something like... "i am sorry that this is how things have come to be. but as erasing an entire team is ultimately better for the intended goal, perhaps your team of three will remain intact?"
so you know. exceptionally clear.
we also got a message warning us that this week was going to get ugly
which...does not fill me with confidence

[piteous]

with all these missions with people living years, different lives, and whatever other freaky stuff, then your guys' memories, i'm sure you do. the likelihood is high.

i wish they could tell us more, considering they seem to know more than us. does team wiping earn more points? will that let the winning team revive more people?

[westedge]

it's unfortunate
also yeah. by the time we write back we might get the answer too late
i think...if you wipe a whole team, it would have to be doing it by your own hands?
idk if it counts if you erase one and then the other just disappears
but i can't be sure
it's about the only thing that makes sense though
...vash, who do you want to win?

[piteous]

the rules of this game are complicated for no reason.

everyone here has been kind.

[ what an answer to that question, honestly. ]

who do you want to win, Jonas?

[westedge]

and that makes it all the much harder
i don't know
is...you don't have to tell me why
but is there a reason you didn't actually answer?

[piteous]

from my interactions with everyone, i think each team is a good choice. it's nothing ominous.

[westedge]

i guess that's fair enough
i do think there are some teams that are more questionable than others
but we will not really know until the final points tally

[piteous]

yeah. it's normal for people to hold grudges, but i want to believe in the intrinsic good i've seen in others. we'll see when the points tally or if we get another leaderboard.

you don't know which team you're rooting for?

[westedge]

it's more that...i would like to believe in the intrinsic good
but i don't think that exists
not the way people want
i think there are things that get in the way of that and it may or may not be better to remove those factors from the picture before really deciding
i don't know
it's complicated too when people keep saying every team has the best intentions in mind but we don't know that either

[piteous]

sounds like what Wolfwood would say, but in the end he didn't go killing every day.

[ it's fond. also ooc it's funny when you're blocked out by murdergame schedule ]

[westedge]

to be fair
it wouldn't have earned points or anything anyway if it was outside of thursday
so there's that too
idk is it so bad to be pragmatic about it, you think?
i don't want to fully support teams just because they're high-ranking without knowing everything about everything

[piteous]

i think you get the picture. being pragmatic is not bad. i just personally am not that pessimistic, which is a different thing.

got a problem with any of the current teams, then?

[westedge]

it's an admirable thing vash
i sort of wish i could be less pessimistic
in theory, yes
in practice, i have to see what happens tomorrow