this is basically jonas's thoughts. honestly, he's usually pretty happy to see vash! he likes vash! vash is a weird lil guy, but overall it's pretty easy to talk to him. this memory is not. this is not an easy memory. this is not even a good memory, and for a moment jonas is rendered completely speechless as he's watching all of this play out. he has a million questions suddenly, none of which he even knows how to properly formulate, and even though they're both still in this barrier he can't help but openly stare once it finishes. ]
[ OOF... THATS ALL, REALLY. Vash is apologetic, but answers his question. ]
... She was a plant. Plants in this case are manmade power plants that can procure resources for human survival, but they're dependent and can only live in a their bulb biome. They can't survive outside of it.
Tesla was a rare case—born from another plant which is a miracle in itself, but able to live without the same physical limitations. The first independent plant born on the colony ship.
[ ...well. he understands all of those words in some semblance of an order, but he can't quite wrap his head around the whole idea of being born as something not quite human but solely to help humans survive.
he also looks a little mad at the idea that such a being was experimented on to such a degree. ]
And instead of doing what they could to cherish the miracle, they took everything from it trying to get more before it perished. Yeah. Sounds like humanity in this case. [ he looks at vash carefully then. ] ...I sort of knew you were a powerhouse, but I didn't really think that was literal. Or that you had a brother? You're...twins, right? Created at the same time and able to live independently.
Curiosity gets the better of a lot of smart people. Happens all the time, apparently.
[ It's okay... Plants are weird and Knives and Vash specifically are special. ]
Normally, I would do my best to hide I'm a plant. They're kind of a scarce luxury... And I'm not really like my sisters. [ Feels bad being special, but you're special in a not nice way. ] We are twins.
Curiosity's not a bad thing, I think. It's just way more dangerous in the hands of someone smart.
[ which is why he's glad to not be smart. ]
I don't know if it matters too much here, yeah. But considering what you've told me about where you guys are from I can only imagine how rare a plant like you would be. [ he tilts his head though, unaware of the complicated question he's about to ask. ] Are you guys still close?
[ He feels better about it if Jonas did not know how different he is from regular plants. A loaded question that shouldn't be loaded. Closing his eyes, he... Wishes they were still close. ]
...and not for the better, I'm guessing. [ a tiny wince. ] Sorry. I've...never had siblings or anything so I can't even really imagine what that must be like.
[ to grow up with someone and have them change so drastically you aren't the same as you were before, he means. i'll give you a mem in the next tag i want to pay attention to vash instead. ]
It must be hard knowing it wasn't always like this.
No, not for the better, unfortunately. [ Just an apologetic smile. ] But... He's still my brother.
[ Maybe he can say that only because Jonas doesn't know the extent of Knives' crimes. Vash doesn't need to lean too hard in how he's a villain, a monster. ]
I've come to terms with it. It's been over a hundred of years, so...
...I always keep forgetting how old you really are. [ like. relatively speaking. ] Even with how much time has passed and coming to terms with stuff, I guess it really doesn't change too much about that fact.
[ that no matter what happens, or has happened, knives is still family. this is about all he has to say on it though, or rather all he gets to say at all because this time something appears until 3:15:57, even if he doesn't entirely recall alex calling for him. ]
...it felt like...a memory, I guess. Or maybe I went back in time to that time. I was back at home with my dad, just...a totally normal day watching TV on the couch. It was before my mom got sick and things changed. I got out of it when Alex sealed the rift in the cave.
...yeah. All of that happened the night Alex and I met. [ so that was kind of a weird, fucked up mess. but he can't refute that other statement, so he settles for shrugging just a little. ]
It hasn't even been a year yet. And I didn't exactly get to say goodbye to her. So...yeah, I miss her.
...I didn't know I would leave her. [ alex, he means. ] Alex and I were supposed to go together to seal the rift, and I didn't because...that happened. And I kind of wish it hadn't, but I'm also kind of glad I found out for sure? It's complicated.
I know you're right. And normally I'd agree with you. But this is still one of those things I might've been in the wrong here. But that's something for me to fix so...[ he shakes his head. ] Thanks, Vash.
Your actions are yours and you get to decide what future you want to pursue, Jonas. That's all for you to figure out and I'm glad that it's clear to you.
[ Gives his shoulder a friendly jostle, like those bro not-hugs. ]
... I think my relationship with my brother was very complicated and he was kind of a freak, so I'm going to make up some super special imaginary scenario for this.
In my mind's eye, I would be mad in this imaginary situation, I think. I believe our future is blank, so we can go anywhere.
[ help. he looks like he's not sure if he wants to laugh or not, but he lets it go and is just kind of glad vash is letting this happen. ]
...I, uh. Appreciate the hypothetical answer in a world where your relationship with your brother wasn't a huge mess. I think it's probably a good answer. [ or at least it's one he can agree with, so obviously it's good for him. ]
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jesus fucking christ.
this is basically jonas's thoughts. honestly, he's usually pretty happy to see vash! he likes vash! vash is a weird lil guy, but overall it's pretty easy to talk to him. this memory is not. this is not an easy memory. this is not even a good memory, and for a moment jonas is rendered completely speechless as he's watching all of this play out. he has a million questions suddenly, none of which he even knows how to properly formulate, and even though they're both still in this barrier he can't help but openly stare once it finishes. ]
What...was Tesla supposed to be...?
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... She was a plant. Plants in this case are manmade power plants that can procure resources for human survival, but they're dependent and can only live in a their bulb biome. They can't survive outside of it.
Tesla was a rare case—born from another plant which is a miracle in itself, but able to live without the same physical limitations. The first independent plant born on the colony ship.
[ Vash closes his eyes. ]
Then after was me and my brother.
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he also looks a little mad at the idea that such a being was experimented on to such a degree. ]
And instead of doing what they could to cherish the miracle, they took everything from it trying to get more before it perished. Yeah. Sounds like humanity in this case. [ he looks at vash carefully then. ] ...I sort of knew you were a powerhouse, but I didn't really think that was literal. Or that you had a brother? You're...twins, right? Created at the same time and able to live independently.
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[ It's okay... Plants are weird and Knives and Vash specifically are special. ]
Normally, I would do my best to hide I'm a plant. They're kind of a scarce luxury... And I'm not really like my sisters. [ Feels bad being special, but you're special in a not nice way. ] We are twins.
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[ which is why he's glad to not be smart. ]
I don't know if it matters too much here, yeah. But considering what you've told me about where you guys are from I can only imagine how rare a plant like you would be. [ he tilts his head though, unaware of the complicated question he's about to ask. ] Are you guys still close?
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[ He feels better about it if Jonas did not know how different he is from regular plants. A loaded question that shouldn't be loaded. Closing his eyes, he... Wishes they were still close. ]
No. Knives—he changed after that day.
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...and not for the better, I'm guessing. [ a tiny wince. ] Sorry. I've...never had siblings or anything so I can't even really imagine what that must be like.
[ to grow up with someone and have them change so drastically you aren't the same as you were before, he means. i'll give you a mem in the next tag i want to pay attention to vash instead. ]
It must be hard knowing it wasn't always like this.
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[ Maybe he can say that only because Jonas doesn't know the extent of Knives' crimes. Vash doesn't need to lean too hard in how he's a villain, a monster. ]
I've come to terms with it. It's been over a hundred of years, so...
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[ that no matter what happens, or has happened, knives is still family. this is about all he has to say on it though, or rather all he gets to say at all because this time something appears until 3:15:57, even if he doesn't entirely recall alex calling for him. ]
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Where did you go, Jonas?
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...it felt like...a memory, I guess. Or maybe I went back in time to that time. I was back at home with my dad, just...a totally normal day watching TV on the couch. It was before my mom got sick and things changed. I got out of it when Alex sealed the rift in the cave.
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[ From Alex. ]
You miss her.
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It hasn't even been a year yet. And I didn't exactly get to say goodbye to her. So...yeah, I miss her.
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... I'm sorry to hear that. [ ... ] If I were in your position, I would have done the same.
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...I didn't know I would leave her. [ alex, he means. ] Alex and I were supposed to go together to seal the rift, and I didn't because...that happened. And I kind of wish it hadn't, but I'm also kind of glad I found out for sure? It's complicated.
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[ He. Gets it. Don't worry. ]
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I know you're right. And normally I'd agree with you. But this is still one of those things I might've been in the wrong here. But that's something for me to fix so...[ he shakes his head. ] Thanks, Vash.
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Your actions are yours and you get to decide what future you want to pursue, Jonas. That's all for you to figure out and I'm glad that it's clear to you.
[ Gives his shoulder a friendly jostle, like those bro not-hugs. ]
All I'm saying is that I understand.
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And if somebody decides your future for you? What about then?
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[ is that sad or ]
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...just busy trying to keep up with the present?
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[ ... ]
But I guess my brother tried to do something like that, control my life. Change me. Choose my future.
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but...hm. ]
Did you ever...maybe resent isn't the right word for it. But I guess were you ever mad it happened? Even if you made a different choice in the end.
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In my mind's eye, I would be mad in this imaginary situation, I think. I believe our future is blank, so we can go anywhere.
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...I, uh. Appreciate the hypothetical answer in a world where your relationship with your brother wasn't a huge mess. I think it's probably a good answer. [ or at least it's one he can agree with, so obviously it's good for him. ]
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