instead of directly answering, he just picks up speed a little to do a kickflip before letting the board roll him forward again. it's easy enough for him, and he thinks maybe that'll satisfy vash a bit. ]
I don't mind. [ showing a few, because he's not so much into the attention but he does like vash and doesn't mind abiding by requests. especially since it's better than thinking about the question too hard. ]
You don't think we could all use something else to focus on sometimes? [ this is not an answer, but his emotions have leveled out again to being nearly neutral. calm. ]
well. he's not a moron (this week.) he has at least figured out what the effect was even before vash mentioned it, so there's a little squirm of nervousness that immediately flattens out again to disappear, settling into a low-level sort of curiosity. ]
Always is. [ which is an honest enough answer. ] It...might be easier just to say what you picked up if you're looking for an actual answer.
[ jonas is good enough at recognizing emotions and understanding feelings. he's just bad at doing anything with them other than outright ignoring them 90% of the time. ]
You're sad. [ Vash doesn't dance around it, but there's empathy there. Hard not to feel that way when there's gloominess always hanging around him. ] Which is fine. A lot has happened.
[ that's fair. he doesn't expect anything but that from vash, so he doesn't seem too wholly surprised. there doesn't seem to be any sort of emotional feedback from it either, like he's just accepted that this is how things are. ]
A lot has happened. [ an agreement. he's not sure if he would call it sadness either. disappointment, yes. being upset, yes. stress, yes. but it's also...] But there's other stuff that didn't happen here that I've been thinking about lately. Which doesn't matter much since it isn't going to help with the game, so...distractions.
[ He is gentler for those who need it, but damn. Right on Jonas being cool with it. Pensive, calm. ]
It isn't going to help with the game, but you are participating. [ Playing with the skates, he loops and circles around. ] And if you're in better shape, it will help you.
[ Vash forms a finger gun when he returns to Jonas, pointing at him before shooting. ]
Clear heart, clear mind—it lets you hit your target.
[ he watches him go in the circle, letting himself follow just as easily in a lazy circle. ]
Spoken like a true space cowboy. [ bemused, more than anything. but he does see some truth in what vash is saying, so he's thinking on that for a bit. ]
I don't know if I would say I'm in bad shape. A shape, sure, but...good and bad are subjective. [ which is a fancy way of stalling, a little. ] I guess I was just thinking about how familiar skate parks are. Even if I haven't been to one for a while, I spent...a lot of time at them over the last few years.
[ which you would think would register as something like homesickness, but it's not that. it's something a little more quiet. somber, probably. and evening out to empty again. ]
Yeah. There's been a lot that's sort of familiar, but this is more familiar than most things. It's simple. I don't have to guess that it may turn into something else or something like that. [ rolls a little... ]
...is it weird to say I'm not sure what part I'm supposed to miss right now? [ he picks up on the regret, but he's treading carefully to see what vash says and does with that. ]
[ watching him go and mimicking the twirl because he can. ]
I don't know. There are some things that I know won't come back. [ certainty. quiet. brief sorrow. ] But maybe something else will, or I'll figure out what I want to focus on to miss and work for.
[ If they have it, of course. Not that it applies to Vash whose lifespan is much longer than humans', but... Time does help with reorganizing thoughts, priorities, etc. ]
Honestly, I wouldn't be able to give good advice. I'm the guy who didn't return home for ten years while still missing home.
[ he sort of just. looks at vash for a moment like he's trying to decide what to say about time, but he decides after a moment to save everything and instead skates a little figure 8 solely because he doesn't want to keep sitting still.
maybe he's not after advice. but he is curious. ]
...why didn't you go back if you missed it? Something stopped you?
[ there's something that jonas is slowly grasping onto. it's quiet, something that's making him keep his own feelings still so that vash doesn't have to deal with both as he treads carefully with his questions. ]
Their own safety. You didn't feel like you could go back without risking things and possibly putting them in more danger. It's different when you're used to it but other people aren't.
[ he doesn't quite have the same experience, but he can vaguely understand in an offshoot sort of way. ]
But you were finally able to go back, weren't you? After those ten years.
[ the shift is noted. but he huffs a little laugh anyway. ]
Yeah, I'll keep that in mind. [ ... haha. ] I tried to call my dad when Alex and I got to the island and we didn't have reception. Now we're here, so...guess he'll have to wait a while for me, too. Hopefully the results aren't that bad.
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Wheel tricks sound really cool. You should show me a couple on the skateboard.
[ Sometimes you like showboating, but not for attention as much as it is to entertain others. ]
... Something you trying to keep your mind off of?
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instead of directly answering, he just picks up speed a little to do a kickflip before letting the board roll him forward again. it's easy enough for him, and he thinks maybe that'll satisfy vash a bit. ]
I don't mind. [ showing a few, because he's not so much into the attention but he does like vash and doesn't mind abiding by requests. especially since it's better than thinking about the question too hard. ]
You don't think we could all use something else to focus on sometimes? [ this is not an answer, but his emotions have leveled out again to being nearly neutral. calm. ]
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[ Applause for the trick!!! Genuine concern blankets over the admiration, light and not overbearing. ]
Unfortunately, the weekly effect lets people be nosy against their will.
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well. he's not a moron (this week.) he has at least figured out what the effect was even before vash mentioned it, so there's a little squirm of nervousness that immediately flattens out again to disappear, settling into a low-level sort of curiosity. ]
Always is. [ which is an honest enough answer. ] It...might be easier just to say what you picked up if you're looking for an actual answer.
[ jonas is good enough at recognizing emotions and understanding feelings. he's just bad at doing anything with them other than outright ignoring them 90% of the time. ]
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You're sad. [ Vash doesn't dance around it, but there's empathy there. Hard not to feel that way when there's gloominess always hanging around him. ] Which is fine. A lot has happened.
[ With erasures, executions. ]
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A lot has happened. [ an agreement. he's not sure if he would call it sadness either. disappointment, yes. being upset, yes. stress, yes. but it's also...] But there's other stuff that didn't happen here that I've been thinking about lately. Which doesn't matter much since it isn't going to help with the game, so...distractions.
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It isn't going to help with the game, but you are participating. [ Playing with the skates, he loops and circles around. ] And if you're in better shape, it will help you.
[ Vash forms a finger gun when he returns to Jonas, pointing at him before shooting. ]
Clear heart, clear mind—it lets you hit your target.
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Spoken like a true space cowboy. [ bemused, more than anything. but he does see some truth in what vash is saying, so he's thinking on that for a bit. ]
I don't know if I would say I'm in bad shape. A shape, sure, but...good and bad are subjective. [ which is a fancy way of stalling, a little. ] I guess I was just thinking about how familiar skate parks are. Even if I haven't been to one for a while, I spent...a lot of time at them over the last few years.
[ which you would think would register as something like homesickness, but it's not that. it's something a little more quiet. somber, probably. and evening out to empty again. ]
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It's kinda nice to see something you're familiar with, right? Skate parks are pretty cool. [ ... ] I miss home, too.
[ at the word, there is faint homesickness, mirroring the quiet, but it comes with regret. ]
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...is it weird to say I'm not sure what part I'm supposed to miss right now? [ he picks up on the regret, but he's treading carefully to see what vash says and does with that. ]
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[ Does a little twirl, arms stretching out mostly for balance. ]
Maybe it'll come to you eventually. Maybe it won't.
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I don't know. There are some things that I know won't come back. [ certainty. quiet. brief sorrow. ] But maybe something else will, or I'll figure out what I want to focus on to miss and work for.
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[ If they have it, of course. Not that it applies to Vash whose lifespan is much longer than humans', but... Time does help with reorganizing thoughts, priorities, etc. ]
Honestly, I wouldn't be able to give good advice. I'm the guy who didn't return home for ten years while still missing home.
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maybe he's not after advice. but he is curious. ]
...why didn't you go back if you missed it? Something stopped you?
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I attract a lot of trouble... And I didn't want them to deal with that.
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Their own safety. You didn't feel like you could go back without risking things and possibly putting them in more danger. It's different when you're used to it but other people aren't.
[ he doesn't quite have the same experience, but he can vaguely understand in an offshoot sort of way. ]
But you were finally able to go back, weren't you? After those ten years.
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[ There's comical dread, lighthearted and fond. Whatever grave emotions are uplifted. ]
The lesson here is to at least phone home once in a while.
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Yeah, I'll keep that in mind. [ ... haha. ] I tried to call my dad when Alex and I got to the island and we didn't have reception. Now we're here, so...guess he'll have to wait a while for me, too. Hopefully the results aren't that bad.
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[ Vash will laugh, too. ]
Time to come to terms with things, let other stuff go, and hold onto something.
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Do you think we really have time here to think about things there? Everything feels like it happens so fast now.
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[ Damn. Hmmm. Vash is quite serious with what he's suggesting. ]
Sometimes you just need three minutes in the morning. Better than nothing.
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...does that work for you? Do you even have three minutes?
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[ Vash is such a creature. A quirky little guy. ]
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[ 3 minute meditation mornings. ]
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