I doubt the reapers would be able to tell us the vote counts in the end, but...I might ask anyway. I usually text them after the public erasure just to check in anyway.
But yeah. It always is. So let's see how people feel going into next week living with this mistake.
Sure. If it's an answer worth sharing I'll let you know. [ ... ] I'd like to know, too. There were too many things floating around that made it hard to pin down a team, let alone a person. They did a good job covering their tracks. Or at least sending us into a tailspin all the way until the last hour.
I was thinking a bit about the pins that were knocked over. They have metal backs. If Shenhe was attacking with fire, and the flame- still a psych - reflected light off of all that metal, it could be blindingly bright.
[ which would've been like mad clever.
but. yeah. ]
I thought so too. It's why ultimately I chose to vote for them - like I said. Probability. One of the more frustrating things about having more than one case is that we left with no answers at all.
I... [ and it's the insecurity week, here, for a person who is never, ever insecure. ] ... It's just frustrating. I told Nahri I'd do everything I could to solve it, and I failed.
That's definitely a thought. Would that leave the same kind of brightness photokinesis would? I don't...really know how that psych works or anything. It makes sense though. We thought about Yang Guifei using photokinesis like a light through a giant lens which wasn't too off-base so if it's just a light source in general...
[ thinking this over. ]
We had an answer and we still went with something totally off-base. I still don't understand it. [ but he frowns. ] ...we did do everything we could, but it's just that we didn't really stand a chance when there were two cases. It's like someone designed this for us to fail from the beginning. But I don't think that's really anyone's fault.
[ he says this and he believes this but he's also not about to go into how he really feels about today. how he wasted time suggesting theories. that they would have tried harder. that he wasn't smart enough to make connections and let down both shenhe and lambda. but it's fine. this is just...how things are. ]
I don't know, either. I could ask Wenzhou, but... I don't know. Maybe we missed something important.
[ ugh. ugh ugh ugh. fei du turns shenhe's comb over in his hands, quiet, thoughtful. ]
No. If we had proper tools, we could have solved it in an hour. DNA testing or fingerprints would've gotten us a culprit. [ so. the game itself is designed to fail. he echoes that sentiment, too, and fiddles very carefully with shenhe's comb, running his fingers over the tines. ]
...I still would like to figure out who did it. I'd like to go back over the evidence we have in pictures, and spend some time poring over it. I've always worked in cold cases, and besides... I want to know.
[ not for reasons of vengeance, or anything like that, but. fei du presses his lips together. ] I'd like to ask the person why. I have a thought as to it, and it's not one I like, but it's better than sitting in the dark and wondering.
Even that's an if. We're dead. It wouldn't surprise me if somehow the laws of the UG made it difficult to test DNA, blood or prints anyway. [ rationally. ]
...you're not the only one, you know? I don't think anybody would blame anybody else for wanting to get to the bottom of this or having unanswered questions they want to ask or things they want from the culprit. Both of them, even. We can only work with what we've got left and see what we can make from it. But it always feels like there isn't enough time because something new is always happening, too.
Maybe this will be a little different this time. [ it won't. he knows that, but he can pretend for the sake of someone else. ]
[ there's a long moment of silence, like jonas seems to be debating something. he stares at fei du curiously before he decides it's probably not worth it and nods as well. ]
Erasures are always going to be hard. This one's just got a little extra flavoring, as a treat. [ dully. he's not impressed with this outcome, to say the least. ] And we can guess all we want who's going to end up there tomorrow but we still really won't know until then. That's probably the worst of it.
Oh, nothing. I was just...thinking about things we could've done differently. But it doesn't really matter at this point. Unless somebody has some, like, rewinding power to go back in time to the start of the trial we just have to live with this. Sucks to think about.
I would say I'd wish for the same, but...that's a lot of responsibility to give one team. Especially if they could choose when and how to use it. There'd be no guarantee it'd help us at all.
No. It's hard not to think of this sort of situation with regrets, though.
[ he sighs, finally. ]
I'd like something like that, but I think it may just be because I hate to be wrong. [ it's more than that, but he won't cop to it. too many baby feelings. ] The only way we can move is forward.
Making decisions you can live with, even if they may not be the right one. [ regrets are such a weird thing, he thinks, because even for people who don't live with regrets it's hard to imagine not reflecting on what a regret could be. ]
We'll have to move forward and push other people forward with us. It's the best we can do, right?
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In the end, it's people making the choice that they can live with. It always is.
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But yeah. It always is. So let's see how people feel going into next week living with this mistake.
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[ he shifts, a little, reaching up to run a hand through his hair and exhaling out. a spark jitters over his knuckles, once. ]
I'd still like to find out who did it. Both cases, but... [ but shenhe, especially. ]
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[ i love this jonas icon its such a mood.
he sighs, after a moment, dropping his hands. ]
And what happened with the - that's the other thing I don't understand. We really just let the monkey thing go.
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[ but also...he frowns. ]
I'm sure people thought I was harping on the animal thing too much, but even if it wasn't Simon it feels a lot like Justice was hiding some things.
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[ which would've been like mad clever.
but. yeah. ]
I thought so too. It's why ultimately I chose to vote for them - like I said. Probability. One of the more frustrating things about having more than one case is that we left with no answers at all.
I... [ and it's the insecurity week, here, for a person who is never, ever insecure. ] ... It's just frustrating. I told Nahri I'd do everything I could to solve it, and I failed.
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[ thinking this over. ]
We had an answer and we still went with something totally off-base. I still don't understand it. [ but he frowns. ] ...we did do everything we could, but it's just that we didn't really stand a chance when there were two cases. It's like someone designed this for us to fail from the beginning. But I don't think that's really anyone's fault.
[ he says this and he believes this but he's also not about to go into how he really feels about today. how he wasted time suggesting theories. that they would have tried harder. that he wasn't smart enough to make connections and let down both shenhe and lambda. but it's fine. this is just...how things are. ]
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[ ugh. ugh ugh ugh. fei du turns shenhe's comb over in his hands, quiet, thoughtful. ]
No. If we had proper tools, we could have solved it in an hour. DNA testing or fingerprints would've gotten us a culprit. [ so. the game itself is designed to fail. he echoes that sentiment, too, and fiddles very carefully with shenhe's comb, running his fingers over the tines. ]
...I still would like to figure out who did it. I'd like to go back over the evidence we have in pictures, and spend some time poring over it. I've always worked in cold cases, and besides... I want to know.
[ not for reasons of vengeance, or anything like that, but. fei du presses his lips together. ] I'd like to ask the person why. I have a thought as to it, and it's not one I like, but it's better than sitting in the dark and wondering.
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...you're not the only one, you know? I don't think anybody would blame anybody else for wanting to get to the bottom of this or having unanswered questions they want to ask or things they want from the culprit. Both of them, even. We can only work with what we've got left and see what we can make from it. But it always feels like there isn't enough time because something new is always happening, too.
Maybe this will be a little different this time. [ it won't. he knows that, but he can pretend for the sake of someone else. ]
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the second bit though, fei du nods a little. ] Just a precious short window to investigate. A few days at best.
[ so. yeah.
he sighs, after a moment, and shakes his head. ]
Tomorrow's going to be rough.
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Erasures are always going to be hard. This one's just got a little extra flavoring, as a treat. [ dully. he's not impressed with this outcome, to say the least. ] And we can guess all we want who's going to end up there tomorrow but we still really won't know until then. That's probably the worst of it.
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[ he's too observant, not to catch that look. ]
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anyway ]
Imagine that was someone's team power, and we had no idea. [ he laughs, a little. ] I wish it was.
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I would say I'd wish for the same, but...that's a lot of responsibility to give one team. Especially if they could choose when and how to use it. There'd be no guarantee it'd help us at all.
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[ he sighs, finally. ]
I'd like something like that, but I think it may just be because I hate to be wrong. [ it's more than that, but he won't cop to it. too many baby feelings. ] The only way we can move is forward.
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We'll have to move forward and push other people forward with us. It's the best we can do, right?