[ it's emotionsharing still which means she gets a faint blip of fondness from him at the smile. ]
Well...it's what you said. It ended as well as it could have. I don't know if I'd call all of this a good ending, considering, but...it's an ending. At least we're okay for now. It's about all I can ask after all these weeks, you know?
We set a low baseline, didn't we? [ but it's better to be pleasantly surprised than utterly disappointed. ] I can't be too unhappy about the results even if it still feels off to know it's in the hands of someone else for now.
Better than having high expectations and failing spectacularly. [ he just comes out and says it. ] I am kinda worried these games are gonna continue, but...I guess all I can do is focus on ourselves now.
[ but he just sort of frowns, a little flash of uncertainty in their feelings. ]
I haven't decided. I'm kind of letting Alex pick for us because it's more important for her than me anyway. What about you? Thoughts?
It's like I said to Ylfa earlier. We really just lacked choices this entire game, so I can't say I'm too surprised either.
[ onward they walk. ]
I don't know if it's generous. It's that I want her to make the choice of how we're gonna save her. [ point blank. ] What are your options? [ a pause. ] Um. I mean you don't have to actually share, I get that it's kind of a private thing for some people. I was just curious since there's multiple.
she doesn't know alex's entire situation, but she takes it in stride. everyone facing terrible situations is more normal to her than, say, frees only having to worry about nationasl. ]
I think she'll want to pick well for you both, more than for just herself. [ her smile is faint. ] The most obvious choice is back to my own world. It still needs saving, and I'm still contracted.
[ even though her contract's reach probably doesn't go as far as another dimension, but she honors her contracts for the most part. ]
[ nationasl is a very important situation to worry about, but yeah. he doesn't really elaborate on alex's dilemma to most people because that's for her to share, but given the low thrum of anxiety he's wearing like a second skin it's probably not super great. ]
...we talked. Even if we aren't sure where to go yet, neither of us want to split up. So I think she's thinking of what might be best for us to stay together which technically is going somewhere else.
[ he's silent for a bit. ]
The most obvious choice isn't always the best, despite what may need to be done. The other must be appealing enough if it's making you consider.
It's just something I have to talk to her about again later tonight. I'm giving her time to figure it out on her own before asking again.
[ but he nods. that makes sense to him. ]
We've had this conversation, or at least one similar. I remember. [ he figures lambda got close to someone on the erased side, and while his reflexive thoughts are good, i'm glad there's someone he doesn't voice it out loud. instead, he picks up on the emotions and is quiet again. ]
...are you worried you'll be denied the chance to go now that the time's finally come around?
Yeah. It's a lot of why she hasn't answered me, and I know it. Same reason I'm not pushing until we need to really know.
[ he sort of shrugs minutely at that because...he has truly put in so much thought about odette and lambda i hate this. mostly in that he thinks about how love could change everything for a person, and he vaguely wonders if this is comparable. he's not going to ask, but he thinks that the hesitance is, perhaps, related. and that someone like her should be more than a secondary thought. ]
Can I ask why? [ she says it like it's a sure thing, but he wonders if there's a basis for this or not. ]
[ that's the baseline she's setting for him (and alex).
that's the sweetest thing lambda will never know about. if she knew jonas thought about odette and her in the same context, he would shoot up in her rankings so much that she'd take off her sunglasses about it, but it's all bracket text. ]
Because he told me that's what he wanted. He said he didn't want to stay with me.
I can't keep living with regrets. I have too many on me as it is, so I can't let more of them weigh me down. [ casual shrug. he has regrets from before and regrets here, but he hasn't let more of them build when he can help it.
also stop!!! lambda!!! it's fine he is just like this and will probably blurt out thoughts later. for now, he is keeping this about her. ]
Okay. Did you ask why? Or is that a part of the tonight conversation that's yet to happen?
I did. I don't think I have the full picture, but I have enough of one. I'm still going to have a conversation about it tonight. I don't want to be a hypocrite about telling you to make a choice you won't regret.
[ so she's not going to leave things unsaid, if she can help it. ]
Good. [ he seems pleased about this, even though it's not his business. ] The thing about it is, even if things don't work the way you may want, there's a back-up and we're leaving tomorrow.
...but. I think it's because we're leaving tomorrow you deserve to have a full answer. So push for one as much as you want. [ no regrets. ]
[ she thinks it's sweet enough of jonas to say all this to her. ]
I'll get it out of him. Don't worry. For better or worse, he's going to have to let it all out if he wants to get what he thinks he wants. I'll fight him all the way.
That's the spirit. [ lmao good luck rang, i assume it's rang. jonas is just minding his own business and fully believes lambda can do whatever she wants forever. ] No mercy. It'll work out the way it's meant to.
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Well...it's what you said. It ended as well as it could have. I don't know if I'd call all of this a good ending, considering, but...it's an ending. At least we're okay for now. It's about all I can ask after all these weeks, you know?
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We set a low baseline, didn't we? [ but it's better to be pleasantly surprised than utterly disappointed. ] I can't be too unhappy about the results even if it still feels off to know it's in the hands of someone else for now.
What are your plans for after tomorrow?
[ does he know where he's going yet? ]
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[ but he just sort of frowns, a little flash of uncertainty in their feelings. ]
I haven't decided. I'm kind of letting Alex pick for us because it's more important for her than me anyway. What about you? Thoughts?
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[ they can only affect their own fates for now, and lambda doesn't mind it too terribly. her ambitions aren't small, but they aren't selfless. ]
That's generous of you. [ she says that, but she gets it. ] I only have two options I'll consider, so it depends on how a conversation goes tonight.
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[ onward they walk. ]
I don't know if it's generous. It's that I want her to make the choice of how we're gonna save her. [ point blank. ] What are your options? [ a pause. ] Um. I mean you don't have to actually share, I get that it's kind of a private thing for some people. I was just curious since there's multiple.
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she doesn't know alex's entire situation, but she takes it in stride. everyone facing terrible situations is more normal to her than, say, frees only having to worry about nationasl. ]
I think she'll want to pick well for you both, more than for just herself. [ her smile is faint. ] The most obvious choice is back to my own world. It still needs saving, and I'm still contracted.
[ even though her contract's reach probably doesn't go as far as another dimension, but she honors her contracts for the most part. ]
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...we talked. Even if we aren't sure where to go yet, neither of us want to split up. So I think she's thinking of what might be best for us to stay together which technically is going somewhere else.
[ he's silent for a bit. ]
The most obvious choice isn't always the best, despite what may need to be done. The other must be appealing enough if it's making you consider.
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You should both go somewhere you can be safe together. [ and happy. that's too soft for her to say aloud. ]
I'm dutiful but not the most dutybound. I'm as rational as I am emotional, so it really depends on what someone else says to me when I confront him.
[ she makes it sounds like she's going to fight someone casually, but her emotions have an undercurrent of desperation. ]
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[ but he nods. that makes sense to him. ]
We've had this conversation, or at least one similar. I remember. [ he figures lambda got close to someone on the erased side, and while his reflexive thoughts are good, i'm glad there's someone he doesn't voice it out loud. instead, he picks up on the emotions and is quiet again. ]
...are you worried you'll be denied the chance to go now that the time's finally come around?
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[ so it's a good thing not to rush. get a good new life, oxenfrees.
there's a flicker of surprise at his unvoiced thought because she never expects to have that kind of consideration from others. ]
The likelihood I'll be refused is high by the other person.
[ lambda is so forceful with her emotions and so sure of herself but still expects to get rejected. it's funny. ]
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[ he sort of shrugs minutely at that because...he has truly put in so much thought about odette and lambda i hate this. mostly in that he thinks about how love could change everything for a person, and he vaguely wonders if this is comparable. he's not going to ask, but he thinks that the hesitance is, perhaps, related. and that someone like her should be more than a secondary thought. ]
Can I ask why? [ she says it like it's a sure thing, but he wonders if there's a basis for this or not. ]
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[ that's the baseline she's setting for him (and alex).
that's the sweetest thing lambda will never know about. if she knew jonas thought about odette and her in the same context, he would shoot up in her rankings so much that she'd take off her sunglasses about it, but it's all bracket text. ]
Because he told me that's what he wanted. He said he didn't want to stay with me.
[ she lifts her shoulders in a little shrug. ]
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also stop!!! lambda!!! it's fine he is just like this and will probably blurt out thoughts later. for now, he is keeping this about her. ]
Okay. Did you ask why? Or is that a part of the tonight conversation that's yet to happen?
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[ no more regrets. ]
I did. I don't think I have the full picture, but I have enough of one. I'm still going to have a conversation about it tonight. I don't want to be a hypocrite about telling you to make a choice you won't regret.
[ so she's not going to leave things unsaid, if she can help it. ]
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...but. I think it's because we're leaving tomorrow you deserve to have a full answer. So push for one as much as you want. [ no regrets. ]
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[ she thinks it's sweet enough of jonas to say all this to her. ]
I'll get it out of him. Don't worry. For better or worse, he's going to have to let it all out if he wants to get what he thinks he wants. I'll fight him all the way.
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