Yeah. It's a lot of why she hasn't answered me, and I know it. Same reason I'm not pushing until we need to really know.
[ he sort of shrugs minutely at that because...he has truly put in so much thought about odette and lambda i hate this. mostly in that he thinks about how love could change everything for a person, and he vaguely wonders if this is comparable. he's not going to ask, but he thinks that the hesitance is, perhaps, related. and that someone like her should be more than a secondary thought. ]
Can I ask why? [ she says it like it's a sure thing, but he wonders if there's a basis for this or not. ]
[ that's the baseline she's setting for him (and alex).
that's the sweetest thing lambda will never know about. if she knew jonas thought about odette and her in the same context, he would shoot up in her rankings so much that she'd take off her sunglasses about it, but it's all bracket text. ]
Because he told me that's what he wanted. He said he didn't want to stay with me.
I can't keep living with regrets. I have too many on me as it is, so I can't let more of them weigh me down. [ casual shrug. he has regrets from before and regrets here, but he hasn't let more of them build when he can help it.
also stop!!! lambda!!! it's fine he is just like this and will probably blurt out thoughts later. for now, he is keeping this about her. ]
Okay. Did you ask why? Or is that a part of the tonight conversation that's yet to happen?
I did. I don't think I have the full picture, but I have enough of one. I'm still going to have a conversation about it tonight. I don't want to be a hypocrite about telling you to make a choice you won't regret.
[ so she's not going to leave things unsaid, if she can help it. ]
Good. [ he seems pleased about this, even though it's not his business. ] The thing about it is, even if things don't work the way you may want, there's a back-up and we're leaving tomorrow.
...but. I think it's because we're leaving tomorrow you deserve to have a full answer. So push for one as much as you want. [ no regrets. ]
[ she thinks it's sweet enough of jonas to say all this to her. ]
I'll get it out of him. Don't worry. For better or worse, he's going to have to let it all out if he wants to get what he thinks he wants. I'll fight him all the way.
That's the spirit. [ lmao good luck rang, i assume it's rang. jonas is just minding his own business and fully believes lambda can do whatever she wants forever. ] No mercy. It'll work out the way it's meant to.
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[ he sort of shrugs minutely at that because...he has truly put in so much thought about odette and lambda i hate this. mostly in that he thinks about how love could change everything for a person, and he vaguely wonders if this is comparable. he's not going to ask, but he thinks that the hesitance is, perhaps, related. and that someone like her should be more than a secondary thought. ]
Can I ask why? [ she says it like it's a sure thing, but he wonders if there's a basis for this or not. ]
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[ that's the baseline she's setting for him (and alex).
that's the sweetest thing lambda will never know about. if she knew jonas thought about odette and her in the same context, he would shoot up in her rankings so much that she'd take off her sunglasses about it, but it's all bracket text. ]
Because he told me that's what he wanted. He said he didn't want to stay with me.
[ she lifts her shoulders in a little shrug. ]
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also stop!!! lambda!!! it's fine he is just like this and will probably blurt out thoughts later. for now, he is keeping this about her. ]
Okay. Did you ask why? Or is that a part of the tonight conversation that's yet to happen?
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[ no more regrets. ]
I did. I don't think I have the full picture, but I have enough of one. I'm still going to have a conversation about it tonight. I don't want to be a hypocrite about telling you to make a choice you won't regret.
[ so she's not going to leave things unsaid, if she can help it. ]
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...but. I think it's because we're leaving tomorrow you deserve to have a full answer. So push for one as much as you want. [ no regrets. ]
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[ she thinks it's sweet enough of jonas to say all this to her. ]
I'll get it out of him. Don't worry. For better or worse, he's going to have to let it all out if he wants to get what he thinks he wants. I'll fight him all the way.
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