...hence the wine and actually having a drink with him before you guys got started. Something like that. [ he doesn't seem to have many feelings on that. ] I don't...think that's necessarily a wrong reason when we all know exactly why we're here. It'd be more wrong, I think, if you had decided his life wasn't worth anything and that's why it needed to be erased. But picking someone you could try to have an understanding with is different.
[ yeah sometimes you just have a nice grape juice before a murder ]
I think it's better reasoning than targeting Rin. [ but he's biased. ] ...But in the end, we're still deciding who dies. It's going to make someone upset, no matter what.
I know that's unfair.
[ he understands wenzhou and nahri and everyone else. he's been there. ]
I go back and forth on if fairness matters here or not. Because in the end, everyone's deciding who dies. Whether we're the ones erasing people ourselves, or we're voting to have people erased. Like I've been saying from the beginning, it's about making choices you can live with. Even if other people are going to be upset or think it's unfair. All we can do is look out for our own, and try to find people we might be able to trust along the way.
[ he nods. jonas might hide some of his Feelings, but he's been honest about this subject before. ]
...No matter who we picked, someone was going to be upset. [ he doesn't say that like an unreasonable thing. it's natural. he was heartbroken over rin and still is. ] It's too sad to think about who'd be missed the least. I don't think that's a fair way to do it either.
But you're right. There are things I wouldn't be able to live with after. And friends I want to save. Like my team. And you guys.
[ that's what he's decided to prioritize. these are the choices they have to make. ]
I thought maybe, at first, that might have been a strategy to use. Pick a person I know the least, and maybe someone who'd cause the least damage to everybody else. I quickly realized it was never gonna work that way. Especially the longer we all got to know each other. Everybody has somebody.
[ but he nods. ]
It's mutual, obviously. I know we're getting to a point where things are dire, but there are people I want to see make it as far as possible and figure out how to work together for a new option. People I don't want to see gone, you know? I want my team to stay together as long as possible. I want you and Ylfa to keep surviving. I have a few others, but...we'll see what happens to them.
If we're honest with ourselves, it's been dire since we first got a look at the rulebook. [ there's a pause. ] I'm tired of not being there when people need me the most. I'm not going anywhere if I can help it, especially when things get worse. That's the best I can do.
[ he's stubborn is really what it is. he wants to be there for the people who want him around. ]
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...No. We have our reasons. But you could say that for anyone. In the end, it was our decision.
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We always knew the game would come down to this. People making choices. [ he could stand to sound more judgmental, but he does not. ] Why Fei Du?
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...He's older, and he was Gerard's friend. I think that—made it feel less wrong, for him.
[ it's a noble enough reason, he thinks. ]
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I think it's better reasoning than targeting Rin. [ but he's biased. ] ...But in the end, we're still deciding who dies. It's going to make someone upset, no matter what.
I know that's unfair.
[ he understands wenzhou and nahri and everyone else. he's been there. ]
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I go back and forth on if fairness matters here or not. Because in the end, everyone's deciding who dies. Whether we're the ones erasing people ourselves, or we're voting to have people erased. Like I've been saying from the beginning, it's about making choices you can live with. Even if other people are going to be upset or think it's unfair. All we can do is look out for our own, and try to find people we might be able to trust along the way.
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...No matter who we picked, someone was going to be upset. [ he doesn't say that like an unreasonable thing. it's natural. he was heartbroken over rin and still is. ] It's too sad to think about who'd be missed the least. I don't think that's a fair way to do it either.
But you're right. There are things I wouldn't be able to live with after. And friends I want to save. Like my team. And you guys.
[ that's what he's decided to prioritize. these are the choices they have to make. ]
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[ but he nods. ]
It's mutual, obviously. I know we're getting to a point where things are dire, but there are people I want to see make it as far as possible and figure out how to work together for a new option. People I don't want to see gone, you know? I want my team to stay together as long as possible. I want you and Ylfa to keep surviving. I have a few others, but...we'll see what happens to them.
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...It's dire already. And I'm—...I'm glad you're all still here.
[ if things are going to be this bad, he wants to at least be around people he likes and trusts. even if it's a little selfish to think so. ]
It's only going to get harder.
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[ he's stubborn is really what it is. he wants to be there for the people who want him around. ]