[ he nods. jonas might hide some of his Feelings, but he's been honest about this subject before. ]
...No matter who we picked, someone was going to be upset. [ he doesn't say that like an unreasonable thing. it's natural. he was heartbroken over rin and still is. ] It's too sad to think about who'd be missed the least. I don't think that's a fair way to do it either.
But you're right. There are things I wouldn't be able to live with after. And friends I want to save. Like my team. And you guys.
[ that's what he's decided to prioritize. these are the choices they have to make. ]
I thought maybe, at first, that might have been a strategy to use. Pick a person I know the least, and maybe someone who'd cause the least damage to everybody else. I quickly realized it was never gonna work that way. Especially the longer we all got to know each other. Everybody has somebody.
[ but he nods. ]
It's mutual, obviously. I know we're getting to a point where things are dire, but there are people I want to see make it as far as possible and figure out how to work together for a new option. People I don't want to see gone, you know? I want my team to stay together as long as possible. I want you and Ylfa to keep surviving. I have a few others, but...we'll see what happens to them.
If we're honest with ourselves, it's been dire since we first got a look at the rulebook. [ there's a pause. ] I'm tired of not being there when people need me the most. I'm not going anywhere if I can help it, especially when things get worse. That's the best I can do.
[ he's stubborn is really what it is. he wants to be there for the people who want him around. ]
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...No matter who we picked, someone was going to be upset. [ he doesn't say that like an unreasonable thing. it's natural. he was heartbroken over rin and still is. ] It's too sad to think about who'd be missed the least. I don't think that's a fair way to do it either.
But you're right. There are things I wouldn't be able to live with after. And friends I want to save. Like my team. And you guys.
[ that's what he's decided to prioritize. these are the choices they have to make. ]
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[ but he nods. ]
It's mutual, obviously. I know we're getting to a point where things are dire, but there are people I want to see make it as far as possible and figure out how to work together for a new option. People I don't want to see gone, you know? I want my team to stay together as long as possible. I want you and Ylfa to keep surviving. I have a few others, but...we'll see what happens to them.
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...It's dire already. And I'm—...I'm glad you're all still here.
[ if things are going to be this bad, he wants to at least be around people he likes and trusts. even if it's a little selfish to think so. ]
It's only going to get harder.
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[ he's stubborn is really what it is. he wants to be there for the people who want him around. ]