[ buddy...you okay. livio can have a sit though, yeah, and jonas sort of laughs awkwardly because yeah. can't deny that one. ]
It's been...it's been bad. I'm not going to pretend it's not? [ he's busy fiddling with something in his pocket, frowning in thought. ] I...we've been spoiled staying together this long. Maybe I got stupid thinking it'd always be this way.
[ listen, on top of everything going on, he's still extremely distressed about jonas and co going into no man's land. and the aging thing really freaked him out. like, really freaked him out. very worried about jojo!! ]
I get it. I didn't think anyone would actually.... you guys are so young.
[ it's fine. he's watched a lot of people die in 150 years.
just kidding this still fucking sucks. he is very disoriented and unsure right now. ]
...they went after Valerie, too. [ he says it to be fair, even if he has a hard time caring as much with their setsu dead. ] We might be at the point people aren't caring about age and are caring about who's left numbers-wise.
[ lmaooooo it was a time. surprisingly, no? jonas doesn't seem to have any real aftereffects? nothing but existential dread and guilt and truly just trying to get by. ]
I think that's likely. People...are aware we shouldn't wipe a whole team, but if we keep having weeks with multiple victims it's almost inevitable. And yeah, I'm going to be selfish and say I care about one victim more than the others. I don't expect you or Amelia to feel differently about Simon. Or Monika and Mizuki to feel differently about Valerie.
[ it's shitty for everyone my dude. but...he has 150 years of life experiences shoved into his 17 year old body and brain that he's grappling with and this one hurt a lot more than he could have prepared for. ]
[ he's still going to worry! he feels a bit responsible, and also, jonas.... it's not that livio thinks he's weak, or anything, but no man's land is such a hellhole he can't help but worry about its effects on a semi-normal teenager. nevermind the cyoa effect itself ]
I get it. I'm... at least Simon was an adult. Setsu and Valerie.... [ they're kids. in his eyes, anyway. so yeah, in a way, he is more upset about them than simon. but he understands biases ]
[ that's fair, and i will get back to the yesterday pc im going through my inbox. but it's...fine. he's fine. ]
...some people might've seen Setsu as enough of an adult at eighteen. Especially since they were military and stuff. I don't know. Valerie was a pretty wild choice, too. [ teens... ] I really want to find out what happened to them. If we get this one wrong...I don't know what we're going to do.
Not to me. [ military or not... sorry, you're all babies even if livio is technically younger than entire tbd shh. he exhales. it was quite close, last trial... ]
Me too. We can't rely on what happened last week to happen again. We'll have to work hard.
[ livio your age but also yeah man. there is that. ]
I feel like we've worked hard every week and keep getting in under the wire. But...at the same time I know everyone is doing their best. It's about all we can ask for these days.
It'd be mine. [ he doesn't think it matters to share his voting thoughts with anybody but his team, unfortunately. ] I wouldn't expect everybody to agree. And I wouldn't be upset if people disagreed. It's always been about making choices you can live with.
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w5 friday
...shit day, huh.
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[ going to sit down next to jonas, if jonas seems okay with it ]
Shit week, for you.
[ livio is obviously super concerned, and he opens his mouth to ask 'are you okay', realizes that's a stupid question, and closes it again ]
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It's been...it's been bad. I'm not going to pretend it's not? [ he's busy fiddling with something in his pocket, frowning in thought. ] I...we've been spoiled staying together this long. Maybe I got stupid thinking it'd always be this way.
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I get it. I didn't think anyone would actually.... you guys are so young.
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just kidding this still fucking sucks. he is very disoriented and unsure right now. ]
...they went after Valerie, too. [ he says it to be fair, even if he has a hard time caring as much with their setsu dead. ] We might be at the point people aren't caring about age and are caring about who's left numbers-wise.
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Yeah. Maybe even trying not to wipe out a team. [ .... ] Still super shitty, though.
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I think that's likely. People...are aware we shouldn't wipe a whole team, but if we keep having weeks with multiple victims it's almost inevitable. And yeah, I'm going to be selfish and say I care about one victim more than the others. I don't expect you or Amelia to feel differently about Simon. Or Monika and Mizuki to feel differently about Valerie.
[ it's shitty for everyone my dude. but...he has 150 years of life experiences shoved into his 17 year old body and brain that he's grappling with and this one hurt a lot more than he could have prepared for. ]
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I get it. I'm... at least Simon was an adult. Setsu and Valerie.... [ they're kids. in his eyes, anyway. so yeah, in a way, he is more upset about them than simon. but he understands biases ]
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...some people might've seen Setsu as enough of an adult at eighteen. Especially since they were military and stuff. I don't know. Valerie was a pretty wild choice, too. [ teens... ] I really want to find out what happened to them. If we get this one wrong...I don't know what we're going to do.
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Not to me. [ military or not... sorry, you're all babies even if livio is technically younger than entire tbd shh. he exhales. it was quite close, last trial... ]
Me too. We can't rely on what happened last week to happen again. We'll have to work hard.
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I feel like we've worked hard every week and keep getting in under the wire. But...at the same time I know everyone is doing their best. It's about all we can ask for these days.
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Yeah. We did also have four bodies last week.
[ that is. so much ]
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As long as it's not Froggystyle?
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[ softly ]
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What would your choice be?
[ he's not trying to start a fight or anything, just remembering jonas last week trying to help out froggystyle ]
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It'd be mine. [ he doesn't think it matters to share his voting thoughts with anybody but his team, unfortunately. ] I wouldn't expect everybody to agree. And I wouldn't be upset if people disagreed. It's always been about making choices you can live with.
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That's really all we can do in this situation.
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Sure. [ vaguely. ] Hard to say until we see all the facts about everything anyway.
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