I don't know how Teuta understands her. [ in Japanese her script is just ara? ara ara? aaa... ara? and in english it's like and this but this and that but this and this? and i was like send help. ]
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I think a lot of people spend a lot of time worrying about what they could've done, and if they'd done something different would things have been different. The answer's always yeah, of course it would be. You did something different.
But... it's not like we can change things after they've happened. Not normally. Coming to terms with that's the worst.
[ he doesn't really get to address any of that before another memory appears, and he pauses long enough to really digest what he's seeing. ]
...coming to terms with anything is always the worst part of anything, especially the things we have no control over. [ ... ] Did her own son kill her...?
...yeah, I get that. That need for answers, in a way, to keep you going. [ because it could be extremely tempting to sort of just lie in the dirt after tragedy and not bother getting up.] But given that that sounds present-tense, I think that answers my question.
He wanted to ask me for help, and asked to meet in a public location. Why murder me when he needed my help, and there was a witness to him asking for it.
Teuta’s not here. If he was going to kill me, he’d have killed her too. “Don’t leave any chance for revenge.”
No, yeah, that's completely fair. If someone wanted to erase the evidence it'd be...everybody. Maybe it isn't related then, but it's still kind of crazy that you found him again right before showing up.
[ and speaking of showing up, because the barrier is still up, shu gets another memory ending at 39:02. times jonas is off-screen (31:29-34:07) can be skipped but viewed for the path of the cave itself. ]
...the radio was able to tune into these, like, hidden frequencies that were unusual. What we tuned into was the rift, and by tuning in we accidentally opened it.
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I think a lot of people spend a lot of time worrying about what they could've done, and if they'd done something different would things have been different. The answer's always yeah, of course it would be. You did something different.
But... it's not like we can change things after they've happened. Not normally. Coming to terms with that's the worst.
[ and, y'know. relatable ]
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...coming to terms with anything is always the worst part of anything, especially the things we have no control over. [ ... ] Did her own son kill her...?
[ the fuck had happened there. ]
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I'm choosing to believe so. I don't have any other choice.
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Okay. Bad question, won't ask that one again...
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It's fine.
[ it's really not. the next part gets dragged out of him very slowly, like he's saying things he doesn't want to speak into existence really. ]
I don't know if Yang killed her. But I needed someone to be mad at.
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...because it's easier to direct your anger into something instead of letting it fester and not knowing what to do about the things that happened?
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If I didn’t stay mad at Yang, I wouldn’t have a reason to chase after him.
[ and at the time the idea his everything was just gone, poof, like that was too much to deal with. ]
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No I’m still pretty fucking mad at him.
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I don’t actually think the two things are related.
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Teuta’s not here. If he was going to kill me, he’d have killed her too. “Don’t leave any chance for revenge.”
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[ and speaking of showing up, because the barrier is still up, shu gets another memory ending at 39:02. times jonas is off-screen (31:29-34:07) can be skipped but viewed for the path of the cave itself. ]
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[ -- well.
well.
shu just blinks at that. ]
Uh.
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[ is what he says before there's a memory, and he blinks a little as it fades out. ]
...it's a long story.
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Yeah, I can feel that. The… radio thing, that’s something about picking up messages?
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Universally bad?
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… And that memory was the start of it?
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