...Yeah. [ he thinks he gets it. a person's absence can be so profound. it almost felt inevitable, but he wishes that none of them had to experience the grief of losing a teammate. ] It's good to be mad. It makes me angry that we didn't find out who did it. Mad enough to keep trying to get them back.
I've been mad for a long time, I think. Couldn't afford to do much with it, and even now I don't know if we can try anything. I wish...we even had a clue what else we were missing. It's obvious we didn't look at stuff hard enough or the culprit just made it too hard to piece together by separating everything.
[ he's furious, mostly. ]
...you guys are still ahead? [ he has. no idea if froggy killed this weekend. he's not sure he wants to assume either, but maybe they really are just so far ahead nobody can touch them. ] I want people back. More than anything, I want to figure this out.
[ he understands. the anger he's feeling can only be so much worse for them.
he sighs quietly. ]
...I don't know. I think so. But we didn't erase anybody this week. We were going to take out Simon, except—we didn't wake up. [ a pause. more tentatively, ] Uh—but. It's fine. If you got to him first. That's weird to say if you didn't.
[ well, no judgment, because he and ylfa would've done it otherwise. as would the entire rest of the game. but also, the implications are immediate and terrible. ]
...Oh. [ so simon didn't do it. ] Sorry. That's... worse.
[ going to sleep together, and waking up to the outcome. ]
Yeah. It...I didn't even realize because Alex and I went to investigate the subway. And then we got the announcement and that was it. Just like that, it was over. [ ... ] And if we'd been voted for we would've had to pick which of us was going to be sacrificed.
[ so, understandably, they freaked the fuck out all night. ]
[ he really hadn't even considered if setsu had dealt the finishing blow, and what a terrible situation that would've put them in. truly tbd was suffering behind the scenes. he goes silent for a second, just absorbing what had happened. ]
...I wish we'd caught Setsu's killer. [ except maybe that would also be a team that he likes. ] But I'm glad you weren't caught. No one would want you all to go through that.
[ even if he also holds go to sleep very near and dear to his heart? it's a tough week. ]
...selfishly, yeah, I'm glad we weren't caught either. We did what we had to do, and when the message was very loud and clear that Simon needed to be eliminated we knew we made the right choice.
[ there's a soft frown though. ]
But I don't think it's any better that we're losing Nahida. None of us wanted that either. Obviously we wanted to find Setsu's killer. For our own biased reasons. But I wish things had turned out differently here, too. We're at the point where everybody's gonna lose though. So it's like...what do we do? What's next?
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[ he's furious, mostly. ]
...you guys are still ahead? [ he has. no idea if froggy killed this weekend. he's not sure he wants to assume either, but maybe they really are just so far ahead nobody can touch them. ] I want people back. More than anything, I want to figure this out.
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he sighs quietly. ]
...I don't know. I think so. But we didn't erase anybody this week. We were going to take out Simon, except—we didn't wake up. [ a pause. more tentatively, ] Uh—but. It's fine. If you got to him first. That's weird to say if you didn't.
[ this is both a guess and an assurance. ]
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...Setsu and I went back to our curfew spot when we finished. Anything that happened to them after that, I don't know.
[ so. yeah. ]
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...Oh. [ so simon didn't do it. ] Sorry. That's... worse.
[ going to sleep together, and waking up to the outcome. ]
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Yeah. It...I didn't even realize because Alex and I went to investigate the subway. And then we got the announcement and that was it. Just like that, it was over. [ ... ] And if we'd been voted for we would've had to pick which of us was going to be sacrificed.
[ so, understandably, they freaked the fuck out all night. ]
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...I wish we'd caught Setsu's killer. [ except maybe that would also be a team that he likes. ] But I'm glad you weren't caught. No one would want you all to go through that.
[ even if he also holds go to sleep very near and dear to his heart? it's a tough week. ]
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[ there's a soft frown though. ]
But I don't think it's any better that we're losing Nahida. None of us wanted that either. Obviously we wanted to find Setsu's killer. For our own biased reasons. But I wish things had turned out differently here, too. We're at the point where everybody's gonna lose though. So it's like...what do we do? What's next?